Letting go

I cant let go.
My heart wont allow.
Revived a painful blow.
I cant love now.
...
The heart still hopes.
But the body grows weary.
And the mind has to cope.
With the mood so dreary.
...
One wears a mask.
to hide the pain.
so they wont ask.
question laced bane.
...
"You! there why so sad?
c'mon cheer up its not so bad.
go on live on forget about her,
forget the pains and that devilish cur."
...
...
t'is not as simple,
as they say.
heart is crippled
and with her it stays.
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I want just one chance
before the bell rings
to let my heart dance
to let my heart sing
...
to say the words
are all i need
and when its heard
I will be freed
...
freed from regret
and finally have closure
and i will be set
to finally forget her
...