Erased

 

Everything was erased.

 

The data, the pictures, the emails,

 

Everything that had you in it

 

was gone.

 

 

Believe me when I said I tried to move on,

 

To live without any thoughts of you ever

 

To live without any trace of your memory

 

And yet somewhat yearning to feel that strong closeness

 

There’s nothing left to see.

 

 

It’s all erased, not even a trace of your address on my list

 

Yet I still remember the exact address

 

Rusty, that’s what you called yourself

 

I remember your face on the screen, the photos,

 

Your cheesy laugh and your extreme shyness

 

Painfully saying out word by word…

 

I love you.

 

 

I remember you, I remember the late nights

 

I used to stay up just to chat with you

 

Throughout the entire night, so that you’ll feel better.

 

Just so you won’t be lonely.

 

 

You never had any friends, never really did.

 

Your only friend betrayed you, stabbed you on your back

 

Your first real non-virtual girlfriend taking over your computer

 

Invading our chats.

 

I understood. I believed it was right for me to back out,

 

To erase everything.

 

 

 

Mistake.