"How I wish"

To the one I am still hoping

I couldn't explain the reasons why I fell in love with you.

It was a sudden feeling I couldn't resist to feel.

That moment whenever I think of you makes me want you more.

My heart beats so fast everytime you are in my thoughts.

I even dream of us how happy we were being together.

Whenever I am with you makes me wanna hug and kiss you.

I know we are not meant to be as a lover.

I want you to know that you make me happy.

I want you to know that you're my ever first deepest love.

I may want you to become as my lover, 

But how I wish you can speak with me truly that you love me too like I do.

I know it sounds so stupid to wait you when you have already a lover.

But I just don't understand why I choose to hold on and can't stop this feeling I have for you.

If you truly love and want me then I won't hesitate to have you now.

Don't wait for a time that you will lose something bigger you didn't expect to happen.

If that happens, someday, you will try to look it back to how those things went wrong.