Pros and Cons to YouA Story by Emma RoseAfter watching the boy I liked be with another girl for almost a year of high school, I was taken aback when he asked me out soon after their break-up. My thoughts were as follows.I would have consented without hesitation if you’d asked me
a few months earlier. But she was around. And I don’t mean that in a spiteful way. Envy
maybe. Pretending to listen to you talk about her in maths class everyday
wasn't exactly beneficial. First kiss,
first date, last kiss, and final hate. I went through it all with you. With a
hidden infatuation behind every reassuring nod, every consoling hug. Hints gone
unseen. The guilt of praying for a collapse between the happy couple still runs with me,
dragging me into the heart’s circles of hell and wondering why I should deserve
you now. After two solitary months, a smudged valentine’s note scrawled in the
scraps of my high school diary, and an impromptu invite to the movies, I was
still too insecure to accept you as mine. Now I was actually faced with the
prospect of you, panic set in. How would we - but then we could always - what if
she - no but then I - skin longing to be scarred. Oh no, not in anger at you. At
myself. You’d left her, she’d left you, whatever happened I’m not really sure
but there and then you were just you, alone, and I didn't know how to handle
that. Me, a burden? Possibly. If I were to tell you the dustiest parts of my
punctured heart. But then I realized that you may just see in me a drop of warm
blood that my mother, in all her hopeless, drowning haste, struggled to. I had
no one left. But you. An apprehensive stare into the mirror. And in that moment I let
it be known to the beast whose eyes met mine that you would see the beauty in
her. A simple yes would lead you to see it. © 2013 Emma RoseAuthor's Note
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1 Review Added on November 3, 2013 Last Updated on November 30, 2013 Tags: relationship, boyfriend, girlfriend, envy, valentine, high school, beauty AuthorEmma RoseStaffordshire, Stafford, United KingdomAboutHey there, I'm Emma and I'm a 16-year-old college student from England. Over the last few years, I've been indecisive about what I want to do in the future, but writing and reading have bee a lifelong.. more..Writing
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