Him

Him

 

I’m in a room full of stares.

They must see what I see.

She looks down and notices her legs.

She stares and discovers the frail outline of her silhouette.

It’s okay, though.

I have him.

He helps me see the dark when the light is too bright.

Oh, he has taught me so much.

He taught me that having good looks means more than feeling good in your

heart.

I see that now.

She aches as the true soul of her body drips down from her eyes and down the sides of the cheek.

She also clasps her hands together and stares at them out in front of her at arms length.

It’s become a rigid routine.

A routine that I want to stick with.

I have a special place in my head for him.

No matter what I do, my mind is always full of him.

Taunting.

She got used to the feeling of letting him be in control.

It seemed so simple and so right.

No one will ever experience this kind of comfort I have.

He makes me feel like I can always be working on myself.

Never be too comfortable though, because I am not perfect in his eyes yet.

Everyone thinks they know what is best but they just don’t.

They don’t know what great safety and how secure he makes me feel.

They don’t understand that I am trying to better myself.

They need to let me go.

They have.

She has no one because she left them in a blink of an eye.

No one knew what to do about him.

I’ll be fine as long as he is with me, and I with him.

She looks in the mirror and sees what he has done.

She’s gone.

He won.

E.S.

Reviews

[ANTO]

In days of yore they would have called her possessed and probably tried to burn her on a stake or drown her in a ducking pond but in these times we know that it's obsessive not possession. It doesn't make the influence of the 'voice' any less destructive or malignant.
I always thought of body dysmorphic disorders and trying to be in control but this makes me think of that control being given over, if you will.
Strong writing.

[Emily Sutliff]

Thank you for reading and responding it means a lot. I like everything that you said and I like the way you view what I have written so thank you for that.

[hcarson]

far too many of us no people in this exact position..and we always will..coz its 'just easier..less hassle'..at first. a very well told truth that gets no easier. well done

[Emily Sutliff]

Thank you :)

[Coyote Poetry]

I liked the poem. Felt like I was listening to private thoughts. I like the honest thoughts and needs. The poem had a sad tone to the words. Escaping people leave their mark upon us. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Emily Sutliff]

Thank you again for reviewing my work it means a lot.

[Coyote Poetry]

Was my pleasure and you are welcome.