To the guy I barely knew and fucked

The first time I saw you was at the symphony

You played bass on stage

I played footsy with my boyfriend in the audience

I thought it was impossible that out of everyone there

You were looking at me 

So I stopped looking

 

The first time we met you paraded through my apartment 

While I sat on the sofa in my pjs 

You told me of the first time you saw me 

At the symphony

I thought it was impossible that out of everyone there

You were looking at me 

But you were 

 

The second time we met at the garden gate 

Smoking cigarettes 

And you told me I was the wrench in your life 

Asked me to play a role in your movie 

We were mixing metaphors

But I hardly cared

 

There were other times then

That we met 

Where we kissed

And pretended to watch TV 

Where we fucked 

And you told me about how sometimes you look at Audrey while she's speaking and realize how you have so much to learn

How she sees things in new ways

Surprises you

Delights you

And then you told me you'd never been with anyone as beautiful as me 

You held me and whispered, "you are a problem, but you will never be a mistake" 

 

I should've known then that you love her 

That you will never love me 

But I needed to f**k you 

To forget him 

I just thought I might have gotten lucky

And found something deeper in you

Than the force of your body

Thrusting into mine

Because I swear to god

There was something so f*****g innate

About touching you

Like in the middle of the night

When I would feel you repositioning my body

And you told me in the morning

That I was sort of like music

And you had to play me in the right chord

 

Most of the time you were speaking

It wasn’t to me

You looked past me like I wasn’t even there

Like you really just needed to talk

But it didn’t matter that it was to me

And for once I couldn’t f*****g speak

Because listening to you was far better

Than hearing myself ramble poetry

Because you are poetry

You were poetry right there in my f*****g bed

 

I thought it was impossible that out of everyone you were looking at me 

It isn’t impossible

You did look at me

But that’s all

 

 

Reviews

[Faraway Sado]

This is indeed a very sad and beautiful piece of writing. Keep it up!

[Tracie D'Angelo]

Wow! That was really good! It held my attention to the very end. You perfectly described someone you needed for a moment and not a lifetime. Loved it!

[Richard]

this is a really good poem
this is also a really good story

[Coyote Poetry]

Powerful and very good use of words and thoughts.
"Because listening to you was far better
Than hearing myself ramble poetry
Because you are poetry
You were poetry right there in my f*****g bed "
The above lines were amazing. You are a talented writer. In using so few words. Create place, situation and feel of real life in the poetry. Thank you for sharing the outstanding poetry.
Coyote

[I Am Svetlana]

This is a saddening story, but beautiful on so many levels. Symphonies are amazing, I usually go to some with my dad every few months or so. Sometimes we f**k to forget, just to feel someone's touch. I've been there. Yes, I regret it, but I've moved on and left all I've done in the past. It's hard to feel like a person isn't there when they are, yet they just ignore you as if you're no one special. Just a look can spark up so much emotion, pain, lust and sorry this didnt turn into something deeper how you wanted. Some people never change and feel this guy didnt deserve such a girl like you're character.

[Scandalous]

I love this. This is amazing, five stars no doubt. I can see everything you write, it's so perfect.

[RileyRedding]

The emotional honesty of this piece is about as subtle as a right-cross to the face.
That being said it was a very poignant and mature look into a intimate situation.
Good writing like this makes you feel right there with the narrator.

[JC]

ah yea, refreshing stuff here, absolute truth is always the most profound and when we can relate, everything comes together just right. Enjoyed everything about this poem as if it were a conversation in real life and we were just shooting the s**t but a bit drunk and getting all poetic...I was also surprised that such a wholesome name like Emily Joe could write about f*****g. great job.

[Robert Strzalko]

Strong title. It's very good. The emotion you captured is expressed with clarity and honesty. I didn't struggle to understand what it's about. It tells a story in poetry form, very, very good. Thanks for inviting me to read it.

[A. Amos]

Enjoyed your poetic story telling in this piece...well done!