just another girlA Poem by unspokenguiltI have a box that's filled with you...
I have a box that’s filled of you…something I thought I’d never do. Like those silly girls who write the names of their affection all over their binders.
I open it often and riffle through
Things you’ve said
Things I’ve missed
Reevaluating
What you said
What you meant
Pictures of you
Never looking directly at my camera
Drawings of us together
Things I’d picture coming true
Your letters no matter how insignificant
Even your perverted drawings
I think about that time
The time I was angry at you
And threw out the picture you drew for me
Surprisingly un-perverted
I wish I had kept it
The millions of questions I asked
The millions of answer you half assed
Saying what would get the most colorful reaction
Mysterious in many ways
Our many conversations
Talking about everything but basically nothing
You had a way of making me smile
But then again you also had a way of making me crumble
And the day I tried to ignore you
You weren’t having that
News flash…you make it so I can’t
When I glance your way
To see you pull down your shirt
And push your chest together
Forming b***s
Well I can’t help but smile
And you win
You were always saying what others wouldn’t
Still I was drawn to you
And when I told you
You didn’t get the message
More clearly?
Be honest, no more head games. Do you think I’m stupid for my lingering thoughts of you? Do you think it’s foolish? Do you think I should move on? Is there any reason for me not to? In other words is my liking you worthless because you may never feel the same way? And if all the questions answered above where yes, do you think it’s possible for a friendship?
The boldest I’ve ever been and my downfall
His answers?
Ok then so you want the truth? The truth is, if you like me that’s cool. All friends of mine that are girls have or still do, like me. I believe it’s because I’m such a great friend, and that’s what we really want. Liking people isn’t worthless, I like a lot of people, everyone does, we are growing up. My friendship is here for everyone, but if you turn your back on me your gone. I hope I helped you solve your questions.
The most serious he has been
And to me it sounded like riddles that were too hard to comprehend
So then I’m just another girl?
Another girl with a box of you
Friends…I could handle that.
Just hide my thoughts inside my box
Until I forgot how to behave…avoiding you
As you did to me too
A new school year
No longer talking
Till I leave a letter under my desk
And who should find it but you
Our letters is all I got
When all was through
Our letters and those scattered thoughts of you
I lock it all up
Hoping to forget
But again you can’t let me have that can you?
You stir it all up the day I finally see you again
I reenter my box and skim through
My silly box of me and you
© 2008 unspokenguiltAuthor's Note
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