Until

I wrote this poem in response to a recent lesson I've learnt. Regardless of how hard we may try, we can never escape our past. I think it's important to remember, not forget, and to move on. Enjoy :)

Like a shadow it follows me around

Everywhere I go

Haunting me as I walk

Down every kind of road

At times it terrifies me

Scares me to pieces

Troubles my soul

And triggers my sorrowful tears

Just when I think

I've left it in the dust

It races up behinds me

And holds me back, from the top 

I thought that I could run from it

Hide, until it stopped

Turns out it runs faster

And will find you in every hiding spot

One day I tried to ignore it

Pretend as though it wasn't real

But every day it's a reality, 

A reality I live and feel

Perhaps one day I'll get past it

And it won't haunt me so bad 

But right now I can't get the lead 

All it does is make me sad

I guess it's taught me a few lessons

That dear old friend of mine 

'Be careful when you make decisions'

'Be prepared for them to catch up with you later down the line'

Despite all the fun we've shared

Still it terrorises me

Making sure that in some way or another

Im re-living all my memories 

Who ever would of thought

Anything could have such power

It's like an unpredictable natural disaster

It sneaks up at any hour

What happened to the days,

When it didn't even exist?

If only we lived those ways

The ways of innocent kids

Because it's not until our minds

Mature and learn to take risks

That we're haunted by crazy ghosts of types

That live to feed our anger and distress 

Perhaps one day I'll learn to beat the odds

I'll find a short cut, cover my scent

And escape once and

For all

But I suppose until how I know

Until that day does come

I'll travel down these unknown roads

And to my past I will succumb. 

Author's Note

If there is one thing I've learnt it's that no matter how hard we try, no matter how fast we run, no matter where we hide, we can never escape our past because it lives with us every day of eternity inside our heads.