Twinless

It was sudden, the way this came to me. I don't think I've ever written anything so fast. I have not thought about this consciously for a long time.

I had a twin.

Or so they say 

the other lost at ninety days.

 

My mother thought 

 an empty womb 

 but found my heart, small, beating tune.

 

Questions.

 There's no one to ask 

 about what part of me was lost 

 

The sceptic 

 in me says it's nothing. 

 But times I can't help wondering 

 

An emptiness 

 I can't quantify. 

 A feeling I can't justify 

 

Some things we can only ponder 

 about this life 

 and what's beyond it