Silence

I thought one more night was what I’d need

To end what I knew was eminent 

To bask in memories and finally concede

To forgive him for his abandonment

But I did not get what I was looking for

He always did leave me needing more

And the silence was cold and piercing 

But in the silence I found meaning

My sister and I fight often it seems

And usually I don’t say a word

Sometimes the tears come down in streams

But often I’m cold as a board

She hates that I don’t express myself

She’d rather I fight back screaming

But I keep my emotions high on a shelf

And in the silence there is meaning 

A new man has caught my imagination

It seems like we could talk for days

Slowly building a foundation

For a relationship that could go many ways

We walked on the beach and watched the sun set

Chatting about the depth of the ocean

The most interesting man I’ve ever met

I’m suddenly racked by emotion

So I pause, and stare out at the sea

And watch the last rays gleaming

I can feel him looking at me

In my silence, he found meaning