Shattered Reality Cont.

*****Sorry the formatting is all screwy. I'm not sure what happened.

"You got here just in time to let me know I was worth saving" -Mayday Parade

"Forget your scars, we'll forget mine" -Mayday Parade

In July you said you had feelings for me.

In August you were just so so confused as to what you were feeling because it was unlike anything you’ve ever felt before. It was real and true and in this world today real and true seems to not exist anymore so you were just waiting for a day when hopefully it all finally made sense.

In September I became yours and you became mine.

 

Maybe your “bad boy behavior” was really just you repenting from feeling like a failure that no one wanted, until you found me and I showed you that you’re worth loving. I know how that feels too, to be a failure. Maybe we saved each other. You told me your life was such a mess when we met but that couldn’t have been any truer for me either. I was stripped of everything I had and shoved out into reality, blinded and clueless and desperate to find something to keep me from going straight back to an even rougher road. I was on a road to recovery that I didn’t want to be on at all. I felt as if I didn’t have any reason to be on that road; I was too much of a failure, too deep in my sadness, too unworthy. But you came into my life right at the perfect time to let me know that I was someone deserving of saving and happiness. I hope I showed that to you too and I think I did. Maybe if I hadn't come into your life you never would have escaped the road you were traveling farther and farther down. Maybe if you never met me then soon it would be too late for you to turn around. We’ve been through rough times but we can forget each other’s scars. As long as I have you there’s one thing I’m sure of: that I am happy. Hopefully you’re happy now and if you having me helped you out even at all then I think I can live with that. I’m not sure entirely what led you away from everything you were doing to destroy yourself but if you having me helped you rebuild yourself then, it was my pleasure. You were good at hiding your crumbling life and I never would have expected it. I thought I was just someone to talk to, to make the time pass. In reality, I made you realize what it feels like to actually like someone for who they are. No matter where we started out, look where we are now. “I’m in love with the girl I didn't want to talk to” you told me.

I hope nothing changes because where we stand right now I never ever want to sit down from.