I think I missed a lesson somewhere

Rough draft.

I have kicked my shoes off in the same spot

for 15 years.

I have ate alone in the same spot

for 15 years.

I have flopped on the

same

mattress

on the

same

bed

in the

same

spot of the 

same 

room

in the

same

house

on the

same

street

in the

same

city

in the

same

state

for 15 years.

 

I’ve lived under a rock.

Movies I’ve wanted to see

have come and

gone.

Restaurants have sat

all around town

busy with visitors who 

return weekly, but I have been

absent.

I wouldn’t even be able to find my way

through my town without a GPS.

I couldn’t tell you what’s

currently going on with politics and

I couldn’t tell you what politics

were like back at any given time.

I still have the worldly smarts of

a little kid.

I don’t know how to do anything

from using a lawnmower

to playing capture the flag.

My heart has never felt

lighting strikes of painful times.

It has yet to build up any

strength and

buckles

at seemingly everything.

 

I am an unexposed negative.

Damn it, I just want to be exposed

but it’s too late for me.

There’s no time

to catch up.

I’m not even sure what happened;

growing up,

nothing seemed off.

Only lately

have I been hit with

the huge blow of realization

that initial intelligence can only take you

so far.

Don't you dare call me smart.

It's a surface level talent of mine.

I can score advanced on some standardized test

but that only tests book smarts

which are far off from able to carry me to success and happiness.

I may achieve highest honors

or whatever stupid name school decides to

call it this year.

That's only because my hours were slaved over

losing sleep over terms that I wouldn't remember

in a week

because the information just doesn't stick.

I may have my homework completed

or be favored by teachers

I may this and that

but I am

so

far

behind

everyone else

on life.

Reviews

[Rasi Rana]

Beautiful piece of writing) with each line it gets more mature) looks like that you are in search for sweet, little and real happiness) (In this poem) Am i right?

[mess of gorgeous chaos]

In this poem and in real life, you are very right! thank you for the review :)

[Rasi Rana]

you are welcome)