Numb Blur.

Have you felt it?

Who am I kidding, I know you have.

At one point or another

you experienced

the feeling of being numb. 

The feeling of not knowing 

what to feel anymore.. 

The highs and lows change 

too fast these days that 

you can't tell which is which, 

you're just caught in a blur 

of emotion somewhere in the middle. 

Pain won't make me 

cry anymore and that breaks my heart

and yet even with my broken heart 

still I refuse to cry. 

"You bottle things up" 

I was told. 

"this will do you no good" 

they said. 

Staying on the same track 

has turned the bottle into 

an endless, empty pit. 

I know which feelings should be there 

but when the hurt is shoveled in, 

all it does is dissolve in the bottle.

This same bottle was the one

that used to not know what to do 

with all the emotions it contained there was so many. 

Oh how times have changed. 

Oh how I wish I could find the cork to the bottle 

and slam it shut 

so maybe 

just maybe 

the feelings would stay there 

long enough for me 

to feel a sense of something 

again. 

And you know what I'll do?

I'll give that bottle a real big shake

and let the emotions rain down on me

whether it be anger, fear, depression

I'll give that bottle a real big shake

and let the emotions rain down on me

Feeling something is better

than nothing

at all.