if they only knew

the pain in her head hurt just as much as the pain of the blade but the pain in her head was worse than the pain she caused herself she could escape the pain she made but the pain that built up in side and the pain other people made  hurt her she felt alone she thought she had no one  she says no one will understand my pain they will think I’m crazy I’m alone she said again too herself I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE so finally she went to the bathroom and slit her thighs, wrists, even neck she wanted to leave this badly the next morning her parents wake up and realize she isn’t in her room she isn’t in the living room nor in the kitchen so they go to check the bathroom they finally pry the door open from where it was locked and there she was laying there lifeless eyes open in the tub her parents screamed and yelled and cried they didn’t know what was happening they thought she was a bright young happy girl they could have helped her if she came to them but no she thought that was the only way maybe the only horrible way there was a way where everyone would end up happy including her parents who know think they did a terrible job of raising their now deceased daughter they didn’t pay attention they didn’t listen they made her do it NO she had to seek help herself no one will know if you hide it theres more you can get past this bump in the road don’t blame your family of something they had  no idea about because you wouldn’t tell him don’t make them feel guilty when your the guilty one and now they will forever cry the when the song you would jam out to in the car would come on when they go to your favorite restaurant or when they even walk past your room thinking what they could have done if they knew,