I Couldn't Tell You

"I couldn't tell you what it feels like, but it's sure a hell real."

Persistent, pestering, indescribable

It tortures me

It haunts me

It scares me

I couldn’t tell you what it feels like

But it's sure as hell

Real

It sits inside my mind, towards the back

Small, but well-known

It leaves for a little while,

But shows it face

Often enough

I couldn’t tell you what it feels like

But it's sure as hell

Real

I’m not groggy

I’m not drugged

I’m not crazy

It feels like a fog

It's not a fog

That’s not what it is

That’s not what I feel

It feels...different

I couldn’t tell you what it feels like

But it's sure as hell

Real

It's not worry

It's not fear

It's not love, lust, attraction

I can tell you what it isn’t

It doesn’t feel like any one of those

But still, the worst part is

That it feels like every one of those

I couldn’t tell you feels like

But it's sure as hell

Real

It’s that feeling that you get

When your whole life is lost

But then it happens

When just a small part of you

Goes missing

Let’s take a small, tiny subject

Like a simple video

A movie, character, a weekly TV show

The little things in life

Become so much

More

Like when someone makes a statement

Just a few, short words

Could feel like a whole, damned essay

To me

I couldn’t tell you what it feels like

But it's sure as hell

Real

Then, what is it?

Hell, I’d love to know

Why my mind can’t stop thinking

Running

Worrying

Fretting

Cycling the same thoughts around

Over and over

There isn’t an off switch

Or an escape

Because an emotion

That you can’t describe

Fathom

Grasp

Or feel

Is  little more complicated than it seems

I couldn’t tell you what it feels like

But it's sure as hell

Real

Reviews

[LaMarcus Childrous]

"Real Feelings" the writing makes me think of the wind. You don't know where it started from and you don't know where it ends but it sure in real. I like it.