My mind drifts to you...

The cloudless sky—catches and holds my eye
The crystal blue – almost an otherworldly hue

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

Inside, hidden and deep, unseen
An evilness seeps, unrelenting

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

Some whisper, while others gently nod their heads
Folders are opened & closed, more whispers of meds

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

We sit, we wait, you want to say something but hesitate
Others smile at us, the man in the white coat prevaricates

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

I try to be strong, for I have known all along
These tests & visits merely prolong

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

There are decisions, which must be made
While the visitors parade

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

Dishes, which are new, for this I do
Strive, to eat, to be alive for you

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

I try to remember, I create my mental archive
So when people, ask I will remember you alive

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

We, sit we talk, we discuss
You want it to be done with minimal fuss

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

Photos are spread over the table
We arrange, divide and re-label

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

Time is now divided into a series of lasts
Each day seems to go by so fast

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

Holidays, birthdays, feast days, roll by
You are fading before my eyes

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

The house is quiet now people speak in whispers,
Each offering smiles so meek

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

I have known, in my heart, this day will come
That eventually, the body would succumb

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

Today we gather, everyone who loved you draw near
They smile at us, hug us and tell us you were so very dear

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

I told myself I would not cry, I’d be strong
But funny thing --  I was so wrong

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

I know now – what my heart knew then
Only we would truly know where we had been

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

I smile, I nod
All the while I feel a fraud

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

Why? Why was our time cut short?
I so very much need your support

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

Now we face a series of firsts
The tears now only come in fits and bursts

 

    My mind drifts to you

 

It has been a year
And this much remains clear

 

    My heart drifts to you.

Reviews

[Elisa]

thanks - I have not been hanging out on the cafe as much... but thank you for your review

[B.J.Brady]

Really nice poem - you capture that sense of loss very well. I like how seemingly inoccuous sights are able to transport you back to a time of such profound emotion. It reminded me of seeing something and remembering people that played such an important time in my life but for what ever reason are no longer around.

[Baby Boy]

Wow! This is beautiful and yet so sad at the same time! And I am sorry for your loss if this is what this poem is about! I too know the feeling! My mother passed almost a year ago too! This is a great poem that touches the reader's heart! :)


-JC-