When?A Poem by ElisaNumbness is cloaking my soul once full of love and laughter now I see ghosts of those feelings- fast and fleeting they are not really mine to hold any longer
When I close my eyes, I see the brightness that once was Now I see images in shades and shadows Sometimes I wish to be in total darkness, that perhaps would be easier to bear
But even in darkness I know there will be memories images like the light which bleeds thru the drawn drapes
I struggle with the silence which is us it is not the absence of noise There is noise aplenty in our lives but the silence I feel is deafening
At times I long to fill the silence with shouts, with cries but the thought occurs to me would you hear them anyway?
Some days I embrace the silence filling it with images and sounds of the past it fills the quiet - but feels empty and faded my mind not truly able to fool my soul
It leaves me drained who is it I see in my mind's eye? Is it me? Was that me- what has happened am I really that faded by the passage of time?
I know if I cut the ties My soul, my heart will bleed what of those who will watch powerless in this
Can I endure the silence warming myself with faded memories small bits of hope truly will I have the strength to cope?
Can I be sastified with half measures can we create a bridge together leading to a divided path can I be happy with only half
The answers are abit hazy as my memories are lazy the course I must choose but I must think clearly - there is much to lose
But then as I am fading away wishing there was something easier not knowing, fearing, longing, desiring it is also a price to pay
For now I embrace the numbness letting myself fade sinking in silence telling myself - be not afraid. © 2008 ElisaReviews
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