Goodbye

Just wanted to say Hello, so I can finally say Goodbye.
I did the best I could, I gave it the college try.
There is no resolving this, there is no working it out.
I'm out of energy to fight, I'm to tired to shout.
I will miss everything we shared, the good and the bad.
Though I am somewhat relieved, I'm also painfully sad.
You will never understand how much you meant to me.
You will never see me as a wife, or give me what I need.
Sometimes I wonder, if you ever truly cared.
Deep down in that wounded heart is there any love still there?
Never once was their affection or the slightest hint of need.
all you ever talked about was your fears of money and greed.
I hope it was all worth it, it came at the price of us.
Keep everything you have, for you it will be enough.
I will find some one who loves me for only me.
I pray for you every night, for you to be set free.
I will no longer allow myself to be dominated by a man.
I will no longer be your warm wind tired friend.
I pray for your success in everything you do.
but i will no longer pay the price, the price of loving you.
I can no longer sit by and wait for you to change.
When I know in my heart, things will never be the same.
Keep all your assets, there are of no use to me.
The only thing i ever wanted was you loving me.
such a simple request, I know you cannot fulfill.
It has been two years, and yet I wait for you still.
No longer can I bear the weight of your identity and struggle.
I can say goodbye as long as you know I love you.
Do what you want to baby, I wish you happiness.
may you find the one meant for you, in loves tender caress.
I just wanted to say I love you and this is the end.
my heart is breaking in two being your warm wind tired friend.
I wish I could say if things got better I'd come back to you.
but we both know its over, no making up, we're through.
I wish things we're different, I wish you could see.
How much I am torn because you aren't here with me.

Reviews

[Rae Wallace]

I can feel your pain in this poem. The repeated themes of grief, sadness, yet revolution are well-written and intriguing. May I suggest altering the order of some of the couplets? It appears that throughout the beginning of your poem, you are describing the pain you feel in the current situation. Then, the perspective shifts to the reasons for your leaving, then returns back to a sense of sadness of a current relationship. I suggest combining the like themes of desire for change in your current relationship, to your decision to leave, then to your "letting go" and moving on. Just a thought.

Well done :)

[NotaBene]

I agree it can be a little confusing. When the piece was written I was still making up my mind about whether or not I wanted to leave. So technically I was still in the relationship. Eventually, I did end up leaving and the divorce to this relationship will be finalized next month. Which will give me plenty of inspiration to add part II to this poem, and all the other poems I wrote regarding this relationship, with even more room to be open and honest, since some things had to be hidden given the circumstances. Thank you for your review, it was very helpful. :)