CAVING INTO LUST

We can all become victims of lust

You don't know how I tire of this 
The selfish way you treat me 
Then make me conform to your kiss 
Our endless post sex fights 
That leave me feeling empty every night 
The times you purposefully hurt me 
Yet, you tell everyone I'm alright 

You make me your abject fool  
I sit in disillusion trying to just pretend 
Lying to myself that you love me 
While you sleep around with all our friends 

Oh, how I try to believe
That you truly love me still 
You continue to twist and turn my brain 
Destroying my pride and my inner will 

Your kisses blow a gust of hope 
I start to believe the winds of lies 
I start to think that I can cope 
Then your storm tears me up inside 

Your storms fury is unrelenting
It bangs and blows down on my mental home
Leaving me naked, shattered, and broken
Crying in our bed at night alone 

I have whimsically played your jester 
This laughable fool beside your throne 
I am always smiling and chortling 
While you continue to do me wrong 

Several times I've walked out 
Several times I've said goodbye 
You always manage to break my will 
I have no more strength to try 

Your sex burns my passion 
Lust for it saturates my will 
You take glory in hearing me scream: 
"Baby, I love you still!" 

Oh, I know I am broken 
Shattered by the evil you have done 
Yet, my menial mind keeps hoping 
It wants to claim you are still the one 
I am trapped behind my tears 
You love to make me cry 
I am lost to my tortured desires 
As you make me live this lie 

Is this lust or compassion? 
Am I your lover or your slave? 
I feel lost and abandoned
In this desolate jilted cave 

I am too far down this hole 
I can no longer see my way 
I am losing who I am 
You have taken my light away 
I feel my pride dying
I must accept this wicked fate 
Caving into your lust 
Trapped with no hope of escape  

© 2013 Eddie Phillips

Author's Note

I don't write like this often but it pains me to see people in relationships like this. So lost that the feel they can never escape. I wanted to write about it so they could read and hopefully see the situation for what it is.

Reviews

[RainC]

It's hard when you love someone but they don't reciprocate their love with the same intensity!
I would definitely bet on this being lust wrapped in compassion, tied with a bow of hope! Love like this isn't love, it's the idea of being in love that you love.

Superb ink! I could feel the emotions dripping from your pen! Stunning Read!

[Eddie Phillips]

Thank you. I wanted that exact feeling to be conveyed in the poem. It is painful but truthful.

[J. Kell]

I have been in this kind of relationship before, this was a great description of the pain and lust experienced and the way it feels impossible to escape the cycle. Thanks for this Eddie well done.

[Clara]

I've been in a relationship like this and I can say that you've captured it perfectly.
The last stanza was incredibly powerful... and accurate.

Great write, Eddie!

[Saddam]

You make me your abject fool
I sit in disillusion trying to just pretend
Lying to myself that you love me
While you sleep around with all our friends

This amazing for me, A new type of poem.
But deasires come to end when your other side does not conyribute. Like this poem.

[Baby Ricochet]

Some relationships are impossible. Good poem Eddie

[Constance Payne]

This is so sad that someone treats someone they claim to love in this manner...to believe so little of yourself to accept this. It makes my heart hurt for this person.

I wish them true love and a clear view of reality.

[Eddie Phillips]

Sorry it took sooo long to comment. I just retyped this piece and I agree ti is sad but people go through it all the time. Thanks for reading.

[Marc Marlon Villaflor]

Sad brilliant piece. sometimes we did our best but our best isn't enough. Thanks for sharing this lovely piece.

[Eddie Phillips]

Yeah, some people suffer in a relationship that is not really a relationship. Its just an excuse. thanks for reading and sorry for the late post comment.

[Simphonia Hale]

it's a sad poem, yet it conveys much of what you're willing to give and how far you'd hope when you're in love.

[Eddie Phillips]

People give so much when they are in love. Its is sad when the other person is not in love with you. I wanted to explore that feeling and i am glad you took the time to read it when you did. Sorry for the late comment. I just retyped this poem and saw people had commented on it.