THE KING OF MY MIND

Psychosis is troubling, you can be truly out of your mind

 

I could be a king in this seclusion 
I could rule inside of my mind 
There I don't need interaction 
In my kingdom everything is mine 

It's my psychosis and the doctors don't get it 
In my mind there is a body they can't find 
I murdered him a few years ago 
When he claimed my brain wasn't mine 

Stupid doctors said I suffer from schizophrenia 
My mother thinks it's a possession of my soul 
All I knew is after I killed him, I felt I was finally in complete control 

Well recently I heard someone whispering 
It was a voice I chose to ignore 
Then he started mindlessly screaming 
He'd "risen" out of the grave in my mind's floor 

My sleep times started increasing 
There were hours of unanswered time 
It was then that I knew he was taking over 
I could feel sticky fingers all over my mind 

I want to be a king in my seclusion 
I must be the only king on my throne 
So I swallowed a bottle full of my medicine 
Then I handcuffed us in this apartment all alone 

This time I know I will finally kill him 
He will finally leave me completely alone 
See he can never again take over 
When this body that’s mine is all gone 

© 2013 Eddie Phillips

Reviews

[Sheila Kline]

Wow, you really run the gamut of circumstances and emotions in this one Eddie! Mental illness, or possession, losing, winning, sane or insane????? There are those times when one feels as if being out of the body that is home to such pain is the only way out, but we must look beyond self, the grave, to the one above who cures us of all troubles!! "Be ye transformed......."Romans 12:2!!"

[Eddie Phillips]

LOL It is a rollercoaster poem. I wanted to write something that discussed the mentally unstable mind. As I do in all my poetry, I wrote it as a story. I often say I am a screenwriter that masquerades as a poet. LOL This poem has sadness too because the mind is so warped that it thinks death is the only way out. Thank you for reading this and leaving such a sweet review.

[Indra's Child]

Woah this is trippy.... I'm subscribing dude.
"sticky fingers all over my mind," -I especially love that.
boop booooop
Peace

[Eddie Phillips]

Thanks for reading. Check out this one also:

http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/ekphill/1168048/

[Indra's Child]

Sure thing haha

[Antoñyo]

Having had up-close dealings with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, this was a powerful read for me.
Captivating to read, and written well.


Thanks for sharing

[Baby Ricochet]

Ted kazinski aka the unibomber was a paranoid schizophrenic and he was brilliant. A genuine diabolical evil genius. Good poem Eddie

[Laminators Dubai]

thats a promising write eddie....such success....we losed...
you said it just too right...noo one ever did that, at least not that perfect...
best as ever....thank you so much eddie....for not just for this one for all.....
thanks for sharing...

[Rita L. Sev]

So much going on here, Eddie - I think you've touched on something everyone goes through - and "out of self" feeling of insanity, identity crisis, whatever... and it can take you to the edge... Anguished and vivid portrayal of words...

[Eddie Phillips]

I wanted to write this poem with so much going on that you felt the confusion and mental frustration as a reader. As with all my writing this poem was written with a story approach. I just wanted to tell a story about mental illness and the confusion a person feels before they do something unthinkable. Thank you for reading it and leaving a thoughtful review.

[Constance Payne]

Amazingly Haunting.

Mental Health can be painful for those within the suffering as well as those who love those who are suffering.

You have come so very close to reality in this my friend.

[Amy Azra Dean]

A haunting poem- a scary - enjoyable read :)

[Eddie Phillips]

Thank you. I wasn't too sure about this poem at first. It was a little bit of a departure for me. Thank you for enjoying it.