Reflection

The reflection in the mirror
looks nothing like me.
This past year made me change
into something I don't want to be.

No one really notices
because I can fake a smile
but it manages to seep through
every once in a while.

Since my parents' divorce
to now forbbiden to belong
the only way I see myself
is in my writing and a song.

They pretend to know
what I am going through
but still I am left alone
so crying is what I do.

I wish others would know
maybe things would change
because all of the ridicule
is making me derranged.

Does anybody hear me?
Does anyone even see
the pain that's in my eyes
reflecting dangerously?

That reflection is not mine.
I pray the mirror lies
for everything I've become
is everything I despise.

Elana Juli Royson 1-08-10