Extract from the inferential

My entire life gravitates to ground.
A fruitless attempt at rewriting/
escaping history. My mind is a wash

of greys and blacks trying to be
re-colored under endless umbrellas
of bound-flapping leaves. Here,

they were late to turn. Here, they are
still clinging by thread-thin wrists
to limbs that throw weight to heaven

as fire consuming an empty house. I am
an empty house. I am covering my interior
with the wallpaper of unanswerable

questions. Why do I find so much
solace in the way inanimate things dance,
covering the morning landscape

with the mania of their temporality.
Or the way, out back, two trees
have grown together. As though to shelter

one another from savagery,
in a world so often defined
by hands held up to the sky.

Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

not just the trees, but so much of the world needs shelter from the savagery.
there are many empty houses now...in one part of the world...strange how a poem written 3 years ago fits exactly the situation in a certain country right now.
that's universality...that is giving us "wallpaper of unanswerable questions"---

How the heck did I miss all these pieces the first time around.

glad I have finally found them.
thanks for your work....it inspires me greatly.
j.

[Eilis]

Hey, Jacob. I’ve missed so much on the site at times. I’m glad you found your way here eventually. Your comments are always appreciated.

[Ern M. Yoshimoto]

a very thought provoking work. exploring the existential dread and uncertainty of our generation, but treated with great subtlety. the words flow like a calm river that bends unexpectedly, giving occasional jolts of anxiety. this feeling of not belonging anywhere and not being a part of our own history which only leads to the question 'then why am i here?' but you hint at the answer towards the end. two trees giving each other shelter. while most of the world might ignore us, having just one person who cares for you can bring you the feeling of belonging somewhere. somewhat discomforting, but a finely penned verse.

[Eilis]

Hi, Erb, thanks for your insightful review of this poem. It is true that one person who understands us can lend life a bit of the meaning we seek. Our greatest power is to genuinely care for and respect others I think. I found your thoughts very interesting. Thank you for visiting.

[Eilis]

Sorry, typing on my phone and it autocorrected your name. Thanks, Ern.

[Vol]

So, your question is "Why do I find so much
solace in the way inanimate things dance,
covering the morning landscape?

Because there is something in us that worships beauty... It is just a human thing we do.

[Eilis]

I think there are many questions in the poem. The explicit one is maybe the foil, I’m not sure. Beauty is sometimes the only available savior. Thanks for your interesting comments, Vol.

[Davey Payne]

This is a comforting piece. I identify with the references to 'solace' and 'mania' and 'unanswerable questions' resonates pretty heavily right now after spending a stretch staring at the wall and imagining what if and what could of been's. This is great

[Eilis]

Hi, Davey. I’m glad you could find a place of understanding in the poem. If something I write resonates for someone I’m always happy to know that. Good luck with your own questions. I do understand those challenges. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

[Einstein Noodle]

pretty brilliant says i! plaintive, heartfelt sadness ... our cries to heaven .. perhaps if we turned in greater numbers to prayer and thanksgiving .. changing our solicitous, immoral theatre, music and press ... giving that space up for the Loving Creator to fill ... with divine love .. it seems in my 73 yrs. there have not been such dark times .. i fear the worst is yet to come ... now Russia blocks food to not just Ukraine; but the whole world. They account for 30% of the wheat ... the immediate area especially being impacted ... here in America less than 30% of our crops are planted compared to the 80% norm for this time of year .. why ... fertilizer and fuel prices are exorbitant ... our own farmers can not afford to plant their crops ........................... your poem hits home .. in many ways .. love the use of trees and leaves .. made me take a think or two ... on a lighter side .. black and white are colors too! ;)

[Eilis]

Hi, E. Thank you for the thoughtful reading of my poem. It is interesting to see what everyone sees here. It is interesting how emotion can transfer universally. Thanks for your visit.

[Einstein Noodle]

yes .. a wondrous thing about creative writing .. it can be all things to all people :)

[SkinlessFrank]

I've often mulled over why there are those who feel centred on darkness. Is it fair to call them gloomy souls, or are they the ones who have it right. Perhaps once you are in that place, only then can you look out at the world calmly and see a special kind of beauty, like the two trees you mention. I love this piece.

[Eilis]

Hi, thank you very much. You do always tend to see the beauty through the veil of darkness. There are so many questions that seem unanswerable. Thank you for reading.

[CD Campbell]

Sometimes I am amazed how most people are able to move through the quagmire of dark and shadow to focus on a small splash of color in the distance. It's as if God himself blinded some to the darkness around them, while others are bobbing in it and must learn to swim in it's current. There's challenge and purpose in it, I guess. I guess? Well Eilis, the overwhelming flash of white lightning rarely comes to the call of the blinded. May they forever stay focused on the color in the distance.

Even though I think you poem has a number of great lines and is tight in its scheme, I think it really shines in the way that you are able to bare your soul and give us a small glimpse of you without sounding sophomoric or simple minded. It's not confessional drivel, but a pondering of the blackness that surrounds us. The two trees grown together is a simple hope. It's a hope one can believe in if only two entities could somehow hold back the growing darkening tide. Another good one.

[Eilis]

I’ve always envied people who can go through the world and miss the darkness. Mostly because I’ve never understood how they could do it. I suppose the secret may be in finding some kind of balance where you’re able to accept that there is both light and dark and find some path that weaves between. Since they are both real. Those trees twining together are definitely a sense of hope for me. Sometimes it’s all I’ve got. Thank you for your thoughtful comment, CD. It’s always lovely to hear from you.

[gram linski]

the wallpaper of unanswerable questions wraps itself around me, I am lost in the beauty and imagery, is there hope.lost in the hands held up to the sky, there is a sense of something dark within the empty house, the fire consuming all the feelings that remain, great poem, Eilis

[Eilis]

Thanks, Gram. Dark light dark light dark light. I think I waffle back and forth between these two states. This poem does feel closest to the dark, but the two trees thing feels like an attempt to pull it back up, I think.

Always do enjoy your point of view. Glad you liked this one. Thanks for reading.

[kentuck14]

E,
I hear an inner conversation . . even maybe a small argument between the different particulars of the soul.Some wonderful images in this piece: "Wallpaper of unanswerable questions;" "fire consuming an empty house;" and the metaphor of the grown together trees . . . great!
T

[Eilis]

Yes, definitely an inner conversation. I suppose that is what most of my poetry is. It amazes me at times that it has meaning to anyone else, but I am grateful that it does.

Thanks for your kind words on this, Tom. And just for taking the time to read. I appreciate it.