Firing snaps

Wasted around a campfire

felt nothing while you were out of your mind

held you down after you hefted an ax

like a badass

a powerful woman

I should watch myself around you

You were drunk flailing to be free in the spit fire

on the ground rolling in the mud

cutting sticks and sticking them in your bra

Safe

keeping you that way was all that mattered

Liar

Holding you like that

lying to myself lying awake in my single tent

the colorful 6x10 teasing childs toy kept from a decade ago

the fire is mine a second time, started up quicker before

noggin to noggin

oceans in eyes

gone and you're wasted but you're in my arms and I can't think about that

keeping you safe

Didn't want to hold you back

rather not listen to the crowd whispering happpiness

dancing instead in dizzy circles

holding up the courage to hold on

but you reach for everyone else too and we watch

closely like a creep everrryday but this time it's ok

birthday presents aside 

reading what I haven't yet

giving something I'm not finished with

And the song is in the mail

Later you stopped by hair straight

purple leggings and sweater,

sinking with a flattened matte

you watched video games and said good bye

i kept listening for post to post

marked by the next time to howl

past the moon and with every kiss on the cheek

by the women wary of my movements

promising five second restrictions

You wanted to touch the ceiling before

this time the stars weren't enough

you'd rather float along the sky

we'd tell you you were

you didn't believe us

you kept worrying about the one who didn't make it

and how much you drank, you couldn't remember

what was it, you couldn't remember

and that musyt be bad

listerine cool to temper the synapsing crackle in your head

buzzing in a state of bees circling the drain ditch,

we didn't know about the well

and we lost the flashlight 

piggybacking the dark