Why am I here?

"Why am I here?" is a poem, a haunting reflection on self-doubt and the search for meaning, exploring the struggle to find purpose in a world that feels indifferent.

Am I just a shadow in my corner?

 Another pointless breath? 

Does it even really matter,

 If I was born of science or in nature's depth?

 A thought passes through my head 

Before sleep I ask the pillow on my bed

 Longing for an answer to hear 

 Why am I here? 

 Will I be the star of the family? 

Will I stay the monster John? 

He who people love to make fun of for infinity 

 Laughing at him endlessly on?

 Too many questions forming

 My heart begins racing 

 Am I the one going insane 

Or does the world wish to keep me chained? 

 As my breath falters, the voices in my head, I ask them 

Did the world break me, or my desire to be a gem? 

Silence for a while, then with a trembling hand, I release the fight,

 And fade into silence, swallowed by night.

Author's Note

I was inspired to write this poem by the wonderful writer's, Twilight's, stories (Nature's Friend and The Survivalist) Thank you Twilight for letting me get inspiration from your beautiful work, it is truly amazing and I hope I connected the two stories exactly as you wanted! (by the way i am talking as if I were John so none of these things apply to me I am happy with my life :D)

Reviews

[Twilight]

In the first verse, it's implied that you don't think it matters; whether you're a product of nature's "depth" or science. But, remember that nature itself is studied as a branch within science; when people study biology. But, it's still a strong opening verse; which raises meaningful questions.

The second verse seemed to emphasise, how even in your bed alone; you sometimes ponder the question of - "why am I here?".

Verse three, poses the question; of whether or not you will shine forth as a star for your family. Sadly though, it also asks if you might become a laughing stock; or mocked by people. No, darling friend. It is more likely, that you will shine in some ways; and not others. And, your genuine friends; would not mock you in cruel ways. Even if a few strangers laughed at you, take no notice. After all, they would not know the real you.

In verse five, you seem almost on the brink of feeling overwhelmed; feeling so vexed by your deep question. But, even the Ancient Greek and Roman philosophers; could not clearly define -"who am I?". So, no reason why you should expect to answer this question on too deep a level.

"Did the world break me, or my desire to be a gem?" As a teenager, it's way too soon; to even imagine that the world may have broken you. And, I am sure that you are a "gem" to the people who matter in your life. Furthermore, try not too be too hard on yourself.

By the way, ignore those critical comments by Glenda (in her review). She is an adult, but seems to have completely missed the point of your thoughtful poem.

[Efxaris Arampatzi]

Everything you said in your review is absolutely true! Both about the poem like you have understood the meaning and also the other comments about me feeling broken. I think based on Glenda's review that this poem may be misunderstood by a lot of people because in this poem I am talking as the character John from your story The Survivalist, so none of this actually applies for me I'm super happy with my life and all of these were the potential words of John! And thank you for all of your words but I am mentally okay so no need to worry!

[Nusquam Esse]

Your first stanza specifically stands out, it cuts deep, as I think most people left alone with their thoughts ask themselves these very questions. It isn't just a fear of death, but our own struggle with how fleeting and ephemeral the things which matters seem to be. If we feel a shadow of ourselves, then what are we to others, who don't dwell in our thoughts? "Are you just a thought, just like me?"

[Efxaris Arampatzi]

Thank you for your kind review!!! I appreciate your heartfelt words!

[Catherine]

ooo very powerful, i really enjoyed this

[Efxaris Arampatzi]

Thank you so much for your kind review!!!!

[Sam]

I love this! Beautifully written! Really makes you think about what meaning you want to leave behind when you die. I often too struggle with wondering why I am here

[Efxaris Arampatzi]

Thank you so much for your kind review! I understand you struggle, please learn to appreciate every moment in your life, it is a precious thing to be able to live. You are loved and don't ever forget that. You have purposed and that is why you are here!

[Stella]

Nice work!! This makes me think myself deeply

[Efxaris Arampatzi]

Thank you so much Stella!! I'm glad you like it!

[Thomas W Case]

Powerful work. Very well crafted and pensive writing.

[Efxaris Arampatzi]

Thank you so much for your kind words! I really appreciate the review!

[Betty Hermelee]

A very poignant poem about self reflection; you question your emotions your ego, your existence and much of it is sorrowful… yet I think many of us question ourselves about why we are here on this planet;,your words are very expressive and your content is very honest and real; thank you for sharing this very personal poem.
Warmly, B🌷🌷🌷🌷

[Efxaris Arampatzi]

Thank you so much for your kind words Betty! We all question ourselves but thankfully most of us make it to this day, I really appreciate your review :)

[Betty Hermelee]

You are very welcome!!
Warmly, B

[Kim S.]

I love twilight, And I think his is amazing, such a well written write.
very talented

[Efxaris Arampatzi]

Thank you so much for your review Kim!! I really appreciate it! Yes, he writes masterpieces!

[Kim S.]

not a problem at all. Enjoy your day.

[Efxaris Arampatzi]

Have a wonderful day as well :)

[Milena Grubor]

"Does it even really matter, if I was born of science or in nature's depth?" Wow, beautiful and true. Too often we all ask ourselves the same questions.

[Efxaris Arampatzi]

Thank you so much for your review Milena! It is true yes!

[Kanimogu]

I really like this. I’m sorry that I don’t know about Twilight, but I literally like how you chose the words and expressed something like dark emotions.
I feel like you have similar sense to mine in how you see the world, somehow.

[Efxaris Arampatzi]

Thank you so much for the review! Twilight is a writer here on WritersCafe and he has written lots of beautiful pieces, and the reason I wrote this poem was because I read two of his stories and they really inspired me so this poem is based on those stories and mostly on one of them, The Survivalist. I definitely recommend them if you want to read them search them on his profile, both The Survivalist and Nature's Friend are amazing!

[LisaCarol]

This was beautiful and heartfelt. I imagine John as someone a bit awkward trying to make sense of his life, like many of us do. Your ability to provide this imagery is stunning at your age. Thank you for sharing your writing and please continue to do so.

[Efxaris Arampatzi]

Thank you so much for the review and your kind words Lisa! I really appreciate you!!!