FIVE LOST BOYSA Poem by papaedtruth not often shared, but needing telling. It was 1970.just back from Nam to an ungrateful world. marriage on the rocks. money all spent. just putting in time. uncaring, unappreciated, self destructive.
Ft. Hood, Texas. short-timer populated. anger, loss, rebellion rules. drugs sweep base and back in waves. crawling confusion. refusing adjustment. training with no goal.
3-day pass unites 5 hairless, hapless, ex killer-boys from East, West, and Heartland. tripping on PTSD, a sunshine microdot reality distorting, contorting, oscillating exploration, unfocused concentration.
Gulf bound without a plan in a black Chevy van. every free minute precious. not to be wasted on sleep. pleasure to fear and back again. abundant black beauties. reds and slow release Christmas trees. thai sticks to mellow.
we truck into a psychedelic rock joint in San Antonio flashing primary color amoeba shapes rapid, fluid, electric bounce on walls and floor. sound too loud to speak. light show hypnosis. mini-skirts everywhere. Go-Go girl in cage from ceiling. walking hard.
on the backside of the sunshine score tabs of mescaline from a street stranger. no-fear consumption. night time lost in a strange city. paranoid driver running red lights. united screaming and cursing. preparing to ditch stash. green freeway sign looming relief
drive all night on black beauty speed paralyzed by illusive reality. dark, violent, stormy dawn light. we drive around a highway barricade to hurricane-abandoned, and unaware Galveston beach
five huddled figures leap from van. run into sideways blowing needle sharp, ice cold sleet. wide bell bottom jeans no shirt, no shoes. black, fast moving clouds behind incoming brown water swells.
it lifts in a warm, wet, loving, floating embrace then recedes slamming bodies down onto wet cold white sand, then lifts softly again. extreme sensory input.
dreams of ending this now floating into and below this lovely warm blanket. so easy.
one begins to scream. panic spreads. slick black alien balls with white needle spikes puncture skin. floating just under the surface. in my armpit. as water disappears I writhe on the sand hurt, scrambling, confused, fighting this attacking alien form.
my throat dry from screaming a sober realization forms. a super-saturated ball of unrefined oil collected by straw... an oil spill brought to shore by hurricane suction.
five wet, cold boys sit on a low rock wall passing a bottle. red wine slams empty stomachs. 36 hours without sleep. half the 3 day pass. thai sticks to mellow.
needing motel rest. combine dollars. single roadside cabin room. I awake sitting on floor of black and white checkered shower trying to count the black ones. hot water long gone cold. hands water-shriveled. head pounding. vomit washed away.
thai sticks to mellow the heart pounding speed on the long, quiet ride back to a place we hate to a future without hope. © 2009 papaedReviews
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3 Reviews Added on July 15, 2009 AuthorpapaedKansas City, MOAboutno erudite pontifications, no complex extrapolations no intentional hurtful lies, just simple age-wise aliteration and prose, of a man who's in the throes of living day to day from his head down to.. more..Writing
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