Goodbye.

It’s finally that time.
To say goodbye indefinitely.
The problem is, you kept me in a trap. For months, you made me feel vulnerable and wrong. I was never the girl to long for moments passed.
Then suddenly I was that girl. I would wait and wait. Think about how things went wrong. How we ruined two perfectly good people, a friendship that could have lasted a lifetime.
Another problem, I have lately realised. People disguise pain with the word hate. I never really hated you, that would never be possible. But I hate the way you knew you had a hold. I hate the way you loved me effortlessly and left even more so.
I was never a person to want something, so badly that I’d let it corrupt me. But people also use the word want as a disguise for addiction. That’s the worst bit. I was addicted to you, I felt myself scratching and clawing part of myself away, in order to fill the hole you left. Nothing ever filled that void.
People come out of this sort of addiction, I have learnt. Never unscathed, but none the less.
So this isn’t a love note, or some sort of plea to gain you back.
This is goodbye and it’s a f*****g long time coming.

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[Mr. D]

If you fill a void in your life with other people, that's a misery waiting to happen. To put faith in someone as equally flawed as you and I are is a fool's errand.

God won't fail you, though. I don't know what you believe or if you believe in Him or anything at all, but that's all I'll say on that one.

Bottom line is: if you put your faith in people, you're going to get it back bruised and broken. We can't rely on others and we can't really rely on ourselves either. Basically, don't rely on people if you don't have to. Don't place your happiness in other people's hands or you will make yourself miserable daily.