A Dead Phone for Five Years

A Slam Style Poem.

A wall length mirror shows me every crack in my skin,
Like I am a puzzle that only appears to fit
Together, there are spaces between my edges
I have not yet deciphered but then again,
Neither have you.
I thought the phone would have rang by now
But maybe you’re as lost as I am
I don’t know how to find the girl
Who listened to your stories and thought they were the gospel
I am not the woman you could have made me
I am the the woman I made myself
A stack of loose bricks, but I am climbing
When you've never made it off the ground
I've been there a thousand times but I never found
Hope inside a bottle dripping in self pity
This s**t is hereditary 
I boiled my self confidence and served it over
An empty plate and I still can’t handle
When a man screams I think the walls will collapse 
On top of me.
I still remember what it felt like to be seven.
Though thanks to you, I can count memories on my fingers
I strung up worlds like capes and wore them so
Nothing could ever hurt me
And when you left the silence deafened me
I can’t remember your voice but the feeling
Intoxicates me
I thought you would have called by now.
Five years later I am the woman
My father would have never wanted me to be
Because I didn't let my mental illness define me
And maybe that's why the phone never rings.

Reviews

[Scott Lee]

I love the way you claim your independence in this even though you have been deeply hurt it's as if you are rising back with a strength that was born from the very thing that hurt you. 'I am not the woman you could have made me I am the woman I made myself a stack of loose bricks, but I am climbing." I love this whole piece. Great job. Keep up the good work.

[Chaise Nicole]

Thank you so much :D

[Laura3841]

I think your poem is beautiful. Wonderful imagery.

[Chaise Nicole]

Thank you so much!

[Justin]

that was really great :) :) it tells an amazing story of the character who was able to over come everything, great job :)

[Chaise Nicole]

Thank you so much Justin!

[Justin]

your welcome, i cant wait to read the rest of your material :)

[ConfuzzledKidd]

This is a fantastic piece! I love how you phrase things "I boiled my self confidence and served it over". I look forward to more of your writing !

[Chaise Nicole]

that's my favorite line I wrote. Thank you! It's much appreciated :)

[Anuradha Verma]

Wow!
"I strung up worlds like capes and wore them so" Brilliant! There is pain, there is honesty, there is metaphor, there is REALITY.What more do I need?

[Chaise Nicole]

Thank you! it means a lot :)