Would I Be Sorry

I think about my suicidal ex-friend/bully a lot

If only you had killed yourself

If only you had stopped existing

If only you weren't there that year

If only

If only

If only

If only

Would I be happy

Would I have known

Would the very thought of you still feel like poison?

Would I have mourned you

Would I have moved on

Would I still think that you loved me?

Would they have shut me out faster

Would I have grown

Would I have seen all my broken pieces?

What if you were dead

What if it really happened

What if my life was better

What if

What if

What if

What if

I'm sorry

I hate you

I'm sorry

You b***h

I'm sorry

You don't deserve to live

I'm sorry

Just die

I'm sorry

I'll never pity you

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

I'm sorry