Chapter Two: Amaya

Chapter Two: Amaya

          I watched Lin play with some of her friends at the park. My eight weeks of summer has ended so quickly and tomorrow my senior year begins. I spend my first week visiting family in New Jersey, one week falling in love, four weeks madly in love, one more week in love, and the last week with my heart in the toilet being flushed. When I wrote that letter my nose and eyes were terribly red from crying. Mom still thinks it’s Julie, a fellow camper, who had an accident nobody likes to talk about, but it’s not.

          “Amaya, you’ve been crying ever since last night, and I have a feeling it’s not about Julie,” Alice said hugging me. What she doesn’t know is that I’ve been crying longer than that, even when she slept over last the night before, I couldn’t stop the tears. “If it was about her, you would of cried from the moment you walked in your house.”

          “So you do know me well...” I looked down. The more I thought about it the more it hurt. I wondered if he was thinking of me right now or if I was just a summer thing, or if this was real romance… I wanted him to hold me while we’d stay quite so the councilors wouldn’t catch us and I wanted to kiss my by the lake while everyone eating. I wanted reverse time just to have those moments again.

          “So it is a boy?” she asked.

          “No,” I lied

          “A girl?”

          “NO” she frowned again. Alice was the prettiest girl I know. Light brown hair down to her waist, with greener eyes then the grass, and amazing light brown skin. “I’m sorry… I know…”

          “I’m sorry to…” Ever since Alice told me she was bisexual I could swear she was praying I was too, but I’m not. God I love her, but just not that way. I wish she could understand.

          “I’m sorry again; we could talk about something else… Iris invited me over to her aunt’s pool…” she nearly squealed. “Ok I’m sorry it’s just I’m pretty sure she’s into me…”

          I smiled. Iris came out way before Alice would ever think of coming out, and ever since Alice came out, Iris has really be hanging around her. This is great and all, but sometimes it makes me feel out of her life. I know I’m just over reacting, but can’t help to feel bad vibes from Iris.

          “That’s great,” I forced a smile. I couldn’t tell Alice how I really felt. If she knew she would cut me out her life completely, which was the last thing I needed now.

          “God I miss you! Five weeks without you has sucked,” She growned.

          “Hey, the five weeks I’ve been gone got you closer to Iris more than ever.” Alice nodded in agreement, “and ever since I’ve been home you been texting Iris,” I added a small laugh to not sound jealous.

          “Hey, that’s because you’ve been crying your eyes out for for days missy. And you don’t want to tell me about it.” She frowned.

          “Right…”  said looking down, I forgot about that.

          "I'm sorry, when the times right you'll tell me," I wanted to thank her for being a friend, but just continued to watch Linda play.