This Feeling

I want to scream at the top my lungs
Yell out into the nothingness that consumes my soul every time we fight
I want all these tears to drown me
I want all this pain to suffocate me
I want you to love me like I love you  
Why can't you see this?
Why can't you love me like I love you?
Why must I cut deeper to get relief instead of falling into your arms?