At my funeral, I want the song playing to be staying alive and to have my ashes shot into the sun. And morphine sucks when you wake up from it, I know that it is supposed to keep you out of pain, but when it lasts for more than a half hour, you feel all disy, feel like you are about to fall over and a lot of other things that are basically going through a LSD trip on acid. And I count 43 as twerking, and I haunt the dreams of people who twerk, Oh, and take repeated selfies, It is a very lucrative business, giving everyone hell. As to 48, it's always the first object that breaks. And this feels like it is getting long, so I congratulate you for getting this far in my comment.
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That's certainly a bit of a brainweave there, Jewel. I'm -ahh- guessing that you were at the hospita.. read moreThat's certainly a bit of a brainweave there, Jewel. I'm -ahh- guessing that you were at the hospital recently to be this versed in the subject of morphine ? I hope you didn't write this while under the influence.
See you around. :)
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One, I've told you my age, I don't exactly have reasons to drink or do drugs of any sort (although i.. read moreOne, I've told you my age, I don't exactly have reasons to drink or do drugs of any sort (although it would not be hard for me to acquire any (Bad town, enough intelligence, connections and such.)) But if you mean under the influence of morphine, it is very hard to remember how to write, as well as draw, in these cases, it becomes jumbled messes. And I haven't been to the hospital in a few months (I think it has been about five months (next appointment in seven months! I think it was supposed to be one year. (At one point, I had to go on a hour and fifteen minutes three times a week. Leukemia is a b***h.))) But when you do write under morphine drips, you stay awake for about ten, maybe if, like me, you have a high tolerance for pain killers, in this time, there isn't much to write. And when I managed to remember how to write, every other word was a preposition, but after removing a large majority of them, I came up with the inspiration to write Lovestruck In Time. Although it was mainly if you took doctor who and wrote something that made him fall in love without changing his character or giving him some love potion. I was surprised how absolutely crappy it was. It was basically taking a four year old's writing and removing any adjectives, and replacing them with verbs. This seems to be go rather long again, so I apologize for this, but it is something that is a habit.
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No, I don't have a high tolerance for anything. I was out clubbing with Chris last Sunday. I was off.. read moreNo, I don't have a high tolerance for anything. I was out clubbing with Chris last Sunday. I was offered a, "Jello Shot" which I took. All Monday I was groggy and sleepy.
I take a melatonin 3mg (over-the-counter) medication if I need to sleep. The problem is it's so strong I sleep through the whole day till evening even if it's the morning.
I tried to drink a bottle of wine-cooler one time. I passed out getting halfway through it, so no - I have a low tolerance for medications and liquor. Never had Valium or morphine.
You have Leukemia ? I'm sorry to hear that ... Wishing you the best. And yep, I know about your story, it's a good one and rare - there aren't too many fan-fictions of Doctor Who with the time and effort you've put into it.
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I need at least ten milligrams to help me sleep! I can't believe that it is normally so little! By t.. read moreI need at least ten milligrams to help me sleep! I can't believe that it is normally so little! By the way, Had, past tence, went through chemo, bone marrow transplant, two years out of remission, and thanks for the words on my sotry, lots of time and effort into it.
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Must be rough to go through Chemo. I know Chris's Dad will soon be facing this. You have the support.. read moreMust be rough to go through Chemo. I know Chris's Dad will soon be facing this. You have the support of your friends and family though, right ?
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Family, yes, my friends couldn't visit me though, something about how I hadn't any immune system. Bu.. read moreFamily, yes, my friends couldn't visit me though, something about how I hadn't any immune system. But the only problems that chemo brought about are that I hadn't, aforementioned, no immune system, I also threw up constantly, I had a nutrient I.V. drip that gave me two thousand calories a day and such, (I mentioned to a person that I met that was anorexic and always made fun others because of their weight, so I said "Well, you could try chemo, you don't have to stick you finger down your throat to throw up. Or you could stop eating and get an I.V. drip for nutrients." rather amusing.) But as to Chris's Dad, you should keep an eye on him, and tell him he has my condolences. It can be very rough going through chemo, but some of my friends in the hospital had to go through it many times, they didn't have compatible donors so they had to get their immune system almost wiped out, then rebuilt repeatedly, it sucked more for them, they were going through once every six months.
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Wow, sometimes we never realize how blessed we are until we take a good look around us. I threw up o.. read moreWow, sometimes we never realize how blessed we are until we take a good look around us. I threw up one time 3-years ago from food poisoning and not since more than 15-years before that.
As for Chris's Dad, the doctor said it is doubtful he will live another 6-months if the chemo is ineffective. While I'm not obese, I could stand to lose a few. I blame Seroquel which one of the side-effects is weight gain.
I see Chris every Sunday so he keeps me updated to his status.
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That's too bad, but normally chemo is effective within two, maybe three days. And I understand the b.. read moreThat's too bad, but normally chemo is effective within two, maybe three days. And I understand the blame of weight gain due to meds, one of mine made me gain five pounds in a month, and I normally gain that much in a year.
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What meds were you taking that caused the weight gain ?
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One called meggace, that was meant to make me gain weight, (Although they didn't realize how effecti.. read moreOne called meggace, that was meant to make me gain weight, (Although they didn't realize how effective it would be with me, it was like, 100 mg before each meal.) and the other had a long, hard to pronounce name that I never bothered with. And I normally can tell pronunciation by spelling, it was something my English teacher had me do a lot, whenever she saw an unfamiliar word, just goes to show you how strange medicine names can get.
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That's true. Hey, I just noticed, your Avatar has the girl I am showing above for the Chibi of the w.. read moreThat's true. Hey, I just noticed, your Avatar has the girl I am showing above for the Chibi of the week. With the two ties in her hair. What are the odds ? :)
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Easily calculable, but probably not that large, I found this on google images, and thought it was a .. read moreEasily calculable, but probably not that large, I found this on google images, and thought it was a nice image.
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I was just trying to find a new Chibi I hadn't yet posted. Coincidence. Anyways, back to your situat.. read moreI was just trying to find a new Chibi I hadn't yet posted. Coincidence. Anyways, back to your situation, do you lose much school time since you're on chemo ?
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Half a year, I got, and I think it was ironic, the citizenship award. I didn't really miss much, jus.. read moreHalf a year, I got, and I think it was ironic, the citizenship award. I didn't really miss much, just basic math and English, only stuff I'v studied before.
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I remember being tutored at home after I was in a serious accident. I was on my bicycle and got hit .. read moreI remember being tutored at home after I was in a serious accident. I was on my bicycle and got hit by a car going 40mph. Messed up my arms and legs for a-while. What is this about a Citizenship Award ?
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OWCH! That would have to hurt, but the citizenship award was exactly what it sounds like, and award .. read moreOWCH! That would have to hurt, but the citizenship award was exactly what it sounds like, and award for the most "Well behaved and helpful individual" in the school, load of crap, the half of the year, I was in the hospital. So unless telling people what was going to be happening, or if everyone in the school was an absolute (pardon my french) A*S, then I don't see how I got it. After I went into the hospital, I stayed there for a month and had to let my immune system recover, so I was out the rest of the year, it started in October and ended around the end of it. But after that I was video chatting with my class, only allowed during math class for whatever reason. But even then, all I did was sit on my comfortable couch, and answer simple math questions from classes I missed, nearly never missing them, and being the example of someone who can answer a question.
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So part of the citizenship award was cause you were quiet in class, albeit, you were not in class at.. read moreSo part of the citizenship award was cause you were quiet in class, albeit, you were not in class at all ? :) I remember getting little green squares from my 3rd grade teacher. She would give them to me if I was especially well-behaved while the rest of the class was going ape. I could redeem them in the main office. One green square counted for 2-pachinko balls as there was a pachinko machine in there.
That machine fascinated me. I remember really getting especially lucky one time and I hit the biggest prize where 50-new balls came down. It was after school and I stayed an hour to play and see what else there was. The principal there said she would save my place so I could continue the next day.
Being a smart-a*s though and well-behaved had it's problems. You immediately became bait for bullies and it was passed down from class to school that I was a prime target for abuse.
If you aren't back in school yet, you may have some bullies looking for you, I don't know.
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Oh, I'm back in scool. Remission for 2 years, 3 in school. And bullies leave me allone. You see, I l.. read moreOh, I'm back in scool. Remission for 2 years, 3 in school. And bullies leave me allone. You see, I look like your sterotypicle thin smart a*s, so one day, in 4th, a kid tried to jump me in the bathroom, so I hopped over the door and punched his gut. He dubbled over and I gained a reputation as "bad-a*s nerd." not my words. And the entire football team sticks up for me, so no worry there. But I'm not familiare with the in school pichinco. We just had green, yellow and red cards.
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Quite a few deleted comments above. :) So were the colored cards for reprimand or privilege ?
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Punishment, no real consequences, but I hit the post button too many times.
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Leaving Elementary and Middle, we had no such cards. You did something wrong, you got sent to the pr.. read moreLeaving Elementary and Middle, we had no such cards. You did something wrong, you got sent to the principal's office and he would then spank you and send you back. I remember the early principal from 3rd grade.
His eyesight was so bad he was whipping air but I'd howl all the same like he was skinning me alive. :)
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Well, that's a different generation, in most places, it's illegal to spank a kid. But I think it wou.. read moreWell, that's a different generation, in most places, it's illegal to spank a kid. But I think it would make our system better if they had some form of physical labor for them to do, all dependent on the child. Although, that could work against the system, because, I mean, it looks like I couldn't lift fifty pounds, but I can easily lift one hundred fifty pounds without breaking a sweat. So really, it depends on who you ask.
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Truly I'm not certain what they use for discipline in schools today - aside from perhaps confiscatin.. read moreTruly I'm not certain what they use for discipline in schools today - aside from perhaps confiscating cellphones which might make a dent in someone's behavior. :)
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Not even a dent, but there are some others, like extra homework no one does, detentions that no one .. read moreNot even a dent, but there are some others, like extra homework no one does, detentions that no one really cares about, and other stupid things. That's part of the reason that the schools suck.
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Well both the teachers and staff there are just trying to maintain order. I know, when the teacher i.. read moreWell both the teachers and staff there are just trying to maintain order. I know, when the teacher is away, the whole class likely goes ape, but did you ever ask yourself WHY the class does this ?
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Actualy, yes. As you may know I consider myself to have too much time on my hands. This is how I cam.. read moreActualy, yes. As you may know I consider myself to have too much time on my hands. This is how I came to writing. So, often times, I'd ponder random crap, and eventualy, even philosophy gets boring (#I'm cool.(I hate hashtags)) so I studied habits of random people. I began keeping a little note book labled "observations" (on a side note, in this book, I noticed that female teachers seemed unusualy snapy, and I kept track of this, eventualy realizing that it was a near monthly cycle and then that it was their periods. I was extra nice on the time of the months, just to be safe.) in it, I saw a progrezsion throughout the day, and eventualy discovered the reason this happens, (for those of you who don't know, I'm 14.) They recognize figures of authority, but were considered cowards if they didn't act out. (David, I'm sorry, but for the foreseeable future, I can't watch videos, the dievise I'm using doesn't work with java. So I couldn't watch the video.)
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Oh ? That link above ? It's just to a single picture.
I never did understand what hash tags ar.. read moreOh ? That link above ? It's just to a single picture.
I never did understand what hash tags are. I figured they might be a nice way to advertise my novel, but I wouldn't want to be a pest to others additionally.
As for knowing when your teachers are under stress, that's very kind of you.
I remember one teacher I had, Mr. Simmons, he was always getting on someone's case for the slightest little thing. He's the one that gave me a C+ for my, "Legends" poem, simply because I could not describe or tell him what a Grith was. It was just the way it came out.
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Hashtags are now just a joke, don't advertise with it. And there is always a mean teacher, most of m.. read moreHashtags are now just a joke, don't advertise with it. And there is always a mean teacher, most of mine just knew I was a jacck a*s and smart a*s. But girth is an off thing to be considered worthy to make someone give a C pluse. And I tried to accses it, even wrote it down and urled it, my ds (yes, ds) doesn't like it.
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You can Google it additionally if bit.ly doesn't work for you,
"dw817 legends poem"
read moreYou can Google it additionally if bit.ly doesn't work for you,
"dw817 legends poem"
Of all the teachers I had, I think the only one I became friends with my music teacher. Lots of good times in that class.
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Of all the teachers I had, I think the only one I became friends with my music teacher. Lots of good times in that class.
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Music classes are nice, and I could always do an interesting falseto.
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I have heard that term but I do not know what it means. What is Falseto ?
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A falseto is when someones voice is different from when they sing, my voice, for example, is an A#, .. read moreA falseto is when someones voice is different from when they sing, my voice, for example, is an A#, but my range is two octaves higher and lower, if someone changes their voice, then thats a falseto.
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Wow, that's a gift. I can only sing at the same pitch my voice is. No Falseto about it. I remember b.. read moreWow, that's a gift. I can only sing at the same pitch my voice is. No Falseto about it. I remember being in choir, however, and one new singer we had could sing especially deep so he headed up the baritone selection. :)
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I think I spelling it wrong, but it is a common thing in my family. But I can do two octaves instead.. read moreI think I spelling it wrong, but it is a common thing in my family. But I can do two octaves instead of one. If you want to learn to, when you swollow, your uvula lifts, your adam's/eve's apple lifts and lowers, if you can do that your own, then that changes your voice.
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I know when I was smaller I did perfect soprano. Even won a gold award for it. Pretty embarrassing r.. read moreI know when I was smaller I did perfect soprano. Even won a gold award for it. Pretty embarrassing really I thought. Later my singing voice deepened and I think now I'm an alto.
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Well, I always felt embarrassed when someone would hear me sing, but... a gold mettle, that's kind o.. read moreWell, I always felt embarrassed when someone would hear me sing, but... a gold mettle, that's kind of funny, for singing that is. But I shouldn't be talking about funny things to get mettles from, I mean, I got a mettle for a 100% on one of the simplest test, the Ohio Achievement Assessment. It was the most basic math test I've done.
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That's very good, Jewel ! Have you ever had your Intelligence Quotient tested ?
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Sorry about that deleted comment, using a tablet. At some point, yes, two or three years ago. They h.. read moreSorry about that deleted comment, using a tablet. At some point, yes, two or three years ago. They had to test me to see if I still needed an I.E.P. I never needed, but when you go through cancer, a year to a year and a half. It was like 120, 130, told me I should go to a gifted school, but there are none in my town, use, I wouldn't go either way, too boring, none that I would relate to. The test itself was only 45 to 50 questions, four extended response (4-5) , eight short answer (2) and the rest were multiple choice. One good thin is to come o f it, I'm getting a scholarship when I go to college, that, my grade and cancer will let me go anywhere, so. But if you look up my name you will only find stuff on cancer and the test.
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I took an extensive one as my Dad worked for MENSA, it was 168. I suspect it's quite a bit lower tod.. read moreI took an extensive one as my Dad worked for MENSA, it was 168. I suspect it's quite a bit lower today since I'm on meds that flatten my thinking since I'm bipolar. Ah well. :)
If you want to drop a link where I can find you on the Internet, that would be fine and I would certainly look at your grades and scores.
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Just look up Caleb coltman, and at one point, I was on meds that effectively made me confused and fe.. read moreJust look up Caleb coltman, and at one point, I was on meds that effectively made me confused and feel drunk. But, funny thing, most of my best friends are bipolar, of course you can't claim someone to have a mental disability unless it's a learning defect, so none of them are on meds.
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I found you in Youtube, but you don't explain your Leukemia in there.
http://bit.ly/UcwN60 read moreI found you in Youtube, but you don't explain your Leukemia in there.
http://bit.ly/UcwN60
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That was from when I was sure that I could be populare on YouTube. It was pretty pointless. Oh well.. read moreThat was from when I was sure that I could be populare on YouTube. It was pretty pointless. Oh well. Well the channel could stand to be shut down. But there isn't much to luminous, it was part of me, it tried to stay alive, but got killed by a round of chemo. To quote john green "pain demands to be felt." So I felt it and kicked it in the nuts.NEC since October 2010. I really just miss a few friends from the hospital and being treated like a kid and now just treated like I should know everything and be mature, almost adult, with no perks of being an adult. Even so, I did have cancer perks, (forementioned college scholarship.)
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I made a site in Youtube as well. Youtube kept banning my uploaded videos so I finally gave up and o.. read moreI made a site in Youtube as well. Youtube kept banning my uploaded videos so I finally gave up and only posted content from my video-camera.
I did find, however, you can post any video at all in Google Docs and nothing is deleted or banned there. It's a little harder to use but worth it in the long run.
As for your time in the hospital, it sounds to me like you've done quite a bit of maturing. The longest I was ever in the hospital was one-month.
Me and Dad were visiting a friend at a farm. I was 5-years old. I saw a doggy and got on all fours to pet him. He was across the way, then I heard something metallic break and a voice said, "He's loose, watch out !"
I looked to see a horse coming right at me ! Dad said get out of the way but it was too late. The horse trampled me and ran on. I was in serious condition as my chest was cut open. After that I was in the hospital for a full month.
I remember Dad bringing me coloring books, Crayons, notepad paper, comic books, and a big Easter Basket full of candy and stuff on Easter Day as I was still in the hospital.
Even when I got out I had to be careful and couldn't attend P.E., Gym, or anything that stretched my chest.
Today I still have a scar on my belly to remind me.
Jewel, are you an outpatient or do you have to stay in the hospital now ?
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No, I don't, luckily. You need to be in stable conditions outsider the hospital for a time. And I kn.. read moreNo, I don't, luckily. You need to be in stable conditions outsider the hospital for a time. And I know what it feels like in a small scale, my uncle's horse stomped on my foot one time, hurt pretty awfully. Do you still have breathing problems.
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Not today, Jewel. That was a long time ago. Are you expected to re-enter the hospital or are they do.. read moreNot today, Jewel. That was a long time ago. Are you expected to re-enter the hospital or are they done for now ?
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I go back every year now, no longer have to have a hole drilled into my back for bone marrow. When I.. read moreI go back every year now, no longer have to have a hole drilled into my back for bone marrow. When I first got out of the hospital, I had to go the times a week. And it was a two hour drive each time. But the nurses at the hospital were nice, the three signs of a good nurse are as follows, doesn't talk down to you like your four, didn't make fun of your disease/disability, and draws blood the first time. I had a nurse that was on her first day, but none told me, so I had been ready for a normal blood draw, and give Times before they called another nurse who got out first, and then drink a quart of barium mixed with Gatorade that tastes like pike with the subtle taste you get when you smell ammonia.
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I remember drinking barium myself many years ago, I can't remember what it was for. Yes, it doesn't .. read moreI remember drinking barium myself many years ago, I can't remember what it was for. Yes, it doesn't taste good.
I had heard (I think ?) that they have found a better way to do this and with less liquid ?
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They have, if it was Orange that is. That means it was a dye for an x-Ray. Tastes like absolute crap.. read moreThey have, if it was Orange that is. That means it was a dye for an x-Ray. Tastes like absolute crap, they told me that if I threw it up, I had to start again.
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Same here. I wanted to purge it so bad. But - I kept it down and they X-rayed me. I hope in the futu.. read moreSame here. I wanted to purge it so bad. But - I kept it down and they X-rayed me. I hope in the future they find a way to do it with a single injection or something. And - I guess it's good to know I've been out of the hospital (physical one anyways) for many years now. :)
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Normally they can use M.R.I.s but the electricity used in them, some need their own generator. The b.. read moreNormally they can use M.R.I.s but the electricity used in them, some need their own generator. The barium is simply much cheaper. But that was an interesting metaphors, a non-physical hospital. What was it you exactly meant by that, that your own mind is a hospital? Also, have you noticed that there are 70 comments on this one comment? Rather large number of you ask me.
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By physical hospital, I mean the one that fixes broken bones and stuff. As for mental hospital, I wa.. read moreBy physical hospital, I mean the one that fixes broken bones and stuff. As for mental hospital, I was just released 2-months ago. Basically I was off my meds. Do you take any anti-psychotics along with them working on your Leukemia ?
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You can't legally give a minor anti-psychotics, but by mental, I meant a hospital that you kind of f.. read moreYou can't legally give a minor anti-psychotics, but by mental, I meant a hospital that you kind of forced yourself into by a mental confinement. Plus it wasn't physiologically scaring, but I took a pain reliever called adavain.
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Do you mean Ativan ? That's Lorezepam, I was on it for a few years but it didn't seem to help. I tak.. read moreDo you mean Ativan ? That's Lorezepam, I was on it for a few years but it didn't seem to help. I take Seroquel 400mg at night now to keep the demons at bay. Seems to work fairly well except that at night I have many more dreams than I used to.
And let me tell you something. Mental Wards are not good, by that, I mean a place to stay for your safety. I've been to 4-different ones and they all have the same problems. Patients who threaten you, violate your space, and your sense of peace. Also a few sinister doctors with ulterior motives. I relate one in my book HERE,
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I've had an MRI and an EEG done. Dad was there and - while I never saw the results, something there upset him. He never again questioned how well or poor I was doing in school, and we went for ice-cream after the tests.
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Yes, it was adivan, and that isn't what I meant either.but I don't think I'll try again,I don't thin.. read moreYes, it was adivan, and that isn't what I meant either.but I don't think I'll try again,I don't think I'd be able to explain properly. But I am sorry that you have that problem.
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Just by your relation I wanted to warn you of mental wards, if your family is thinking of putting yo.. read moreJust by your relation I wanted to warn you of mental wards, if your family is thinking of putting you there since Ativan is linked to mental illness. Glad you're not in this situation and you have a loving family that is caring for you ...
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Thanks, but the meds were for the pain, chemo therapy kills your immune system, so... and thanks for.. read moreThanks, but the meds were for the pain, chemo therapy kills your immune system, so... and thanks for the warning. But the last time some one tried to hold me in confinement, it drove every one else insane (ie: the immunization ward) and a while ago, I had a panic attack of sorts, for me they last days of me being stressed out worried and paranoid, so I locked myself in a room with food for lunch if I couldn't escape and put as much effort into making it impossible for me to get out, and I was creative, this includes a circuit that if it does sensing a laser at a certain level, then it would pop up a cardboard human shape that had varying thickness according to where it was on the body, and this was a laser grid with quarter inch gaps between each lining, I had allot of time on my hands.I also learned complex fencing, improvised weaponry, how to use a blade of any kind as a weapon, and a simple krav magha. Needless to say, that rarely occurs. Oh, and I only took it for a month, th adivan.
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Sensing a laser at a certain level ? Umm - this totally confused me, and yes, we do have a few posts.. read moreSensing a laser at a certain level ? Umm - this totally confused me, and yes, we do have a few posts in here now. :)
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At a certain frequency and brightness.it was a bit of a pain to do this with inferred lasers.
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By the way, 51 therapist "do you ever talk to inanimate objects?" Me "yes, but they almost never res.. read moreBy the way, 51 therapist "do you ever talk to inanimate objects?" Me "yes, but they almost never respond, very rude."
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If I stop taking my meds, I do talk to inanimate objects, my teddy bears, however, very politely, th.. read moreIf I stop taking my meds, I do talk to inanimate objects, my teddy bears, however, very politely, they do respond and talk back to me. :)
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Believe our not, that was an actual conversation I had with a school counselor. They needed to decid.. read moreBelieve our not, that was an actual conversation I had with a school counselor. They needed to decide weather or not I needed an I.E.P. I never needed in the first place, the look on his face was priceless, after which they decided I was mentally unstable, but did not needed a I.E.P. although, they couldn't actually call me mentally unstable until I'm 18.
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Closest thing I had to IEP was SRC, Student Rehabilitation Council. I was placed in a special class .. read moreClosest thing I had to IEP was SRC, Student Rehabilitation Council. I was placed in a special class of one with no teacher and lots of books. I was given homework but I never did it. Instead I read and read and READ books, all kinds. When I was finally checked up on, they realized I did no homework but did read, and they said that's fine. So long as I wasn't getting into anymore trouble.
S.R.C. was chosen for me as I had finally had it with a bully at school and attacked him with a padlock on my grip like a brass knuckle around my index finger. I was underage so this was the closest thing to jail they could get for me since I seriously injured him.
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That's unfortunate, now they have a law, and that would have been self-defense. I was bullied, as I .. read moreThat's unfortunate, now they have a law, and that would have been self-defense. I was bullied, as I have mentioned, and one kid tried attacking me in the bathroom when I nearly broke for of his fingers in second grade. Needless to say, the kid accused me of attacking him, even though he's a pathological lirer, so I had to write "I will not lie or hurt a fellow student" two-hundred times every recess, every half hour recess for a month, needles to say, I gave that teacher hell for the year, he hated me, and, I feel like Tyr's actions reports teachers is a general way I'd give him hell, he eventually quit his job, (after two months.) He hated me, and understand why I did what I did. Pissed him off so much.
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Sorry about the bad grammar there, this tablet doesn't like me using it for this but it's still I ha.. read moreSorry about the bad grammar there, this tablet doesn't like me using it for this but it's still I have.
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That's fine. That was the only fight I ever got into where I came out ahead. Oddly enough it did hur.. read moreThat's fine. That was the only fight I ever got into where I came out ahead. Oddly enough it did hurt my middle finger to smack him with the padlock even though the metal ring never touched my finger.
That's a gyp to have to write 6,000 times what you wrote. I think I had that one time and Dad helped me by printing it on his computer at work. :) The teacher wasn't pleased but - hey - I did what she said and it was all typed out neatly.
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I did a similar thing in art when there teacher had everyone write "I will be quite in class three h.. read moreI did a similar thing in art when there teacher had everyone write "I will be quite in class three hundred times over night, so I typed it once, and copy pasted it until I had enough. I printed fourteen copies for the people who never talked in my class, but there was a class of 36 students. She got irritated, even though she never said by hand, a friend of mines mother called and complained. She nearly four fires because of it.
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Four Fires - do you mean there was a fire in the school or the teacher was almost fired 4 times ?read moreFour Fires - do you mean there was a fire in the school or the teacher was almost fired 4 times ?
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Sorry, I'm using a tablet with some weird typing. But I don't know how it got that from she nearly q.. read moreSorry, I'm using a tablet with some weird typing. But I don't know how it got that from she nearly quit because of it, I'm very talented with screwing that kind of thing up.
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Sorry, I'm using a tablet with some weird typing. But I don't know how it got that from she nearly q.. read moreSorry, I'm using a tablet with some weird typing. But I don't know how it got that from she nearly quit because of it, I'm very talented with screwing that kind of thing up.
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Well that's fine. I type everything I do. I don't use a speech-to-text. And I usually type 135wpm wi.. read moreWell that's fine. I type everything I do. I don't use a speech-to-text. And I usually type 135wpm with the keyboard at a hard angle to force accuracy out of me. :)
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I normally top out at 120 WPM, that's why I take so long to write a story. But I'm actually not havi.. read moreI normally top out at 120 WPM, that's why I take so long to write a story. But I'm actually not having as much of a problem with the speech, as with a weird autocorrect system on the Amazon kindle. But I do the same with the Angel thing, what happened in my computers class, the teacher for pissy with me over it, even though I typed faster than her.
Woops ! I rebooted my computer, I see it duplicated the text, scratch that. In any case, I might sug.. read moreWoops ! I rebooted my computer, I see it duplicated the text, scratch that. In any case, I might suggest you don't use any auto-correct. I certainly don't when I work on my stories. What is the Angel thing ?
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Sorry, I can't turn off the autocorrect on the tablet, it also takes what you type, even if its a wo.. read moreSorry, I can't turn off the autocorrect on the tablet, it also takes what you type, even if its a word, then it turns it to the word it thinks is most likely to be used, angle is what I meant, like how you turn the keyboard to the side.
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I see. And yes, the teacher would want you to type with the keyboard level. I know when I was learni.. read moreI see. And yes, the teacher would want you to type with the keyboard level. I know when I was learning typing back in school the teacher insisted I use all 10-fingers. But they got in my way. Today I type at my good speed using only 4-fingers. Two thumbs, two index fingers, one left pinky occasionally for far reaches. :)
At my funeral, I want the song playing to be staying alive and to have my ashes shot into the sun. And morphine sucks when you wake up from it, I know that it is supposed to keep you out of pain, but when it lasts for more than a half hour, you feel all disy, feel like you are about to fall over and a lot of other things that are basically going through a LSD trip on acid. And I count 43 as twerking, and I haunt the dreams of people who twerk, Oh, and take repeated selfies, It is a very lucrative business, giving everyone hell. As to 48, it's always the first object that breaks. And this feels like it is getting long, so I congratulate you for getting this far in my comment.
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That's certainly a bit of a brainweave there, Jewel. I'm -ahh- guessing that you were at the hospita.. read moreThat's certainly a bit of a brainweave there, Jewel. I'm -ahh- guessing that you were at the hospital recently to be this versed in the subject of morphine ? I hope you didn't write this while under the influence.
See you around. :)
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One, I've told you my age, I don't exactly have reasons to drink or do drugs of any sort (although i.. read moreOne, I've told you my age, I don't exactly have reasons to drink or do drugs of any sort (although it would not be hard for me to acquire any (Bad town, enough intelligence, connections and such.)) But if you mean under the influence of morphine, it is very hard to remember how to write, as well as draw, in these cases, it becomes jumbled messes. And I haven't been to the hospital in a few months (I think it has been about five months (next appointment in seven months! I think it was supposed to be one year. (At one point, I had to go on a hour and fifteen minutes three times a week. Leukemia is a b***h.))) But when you do write under morphine drips, you stay awake for about ten, maybe if, like me, you have a high tolerance for pain killers, in this time, there isn't much to write. And when I managed to remember how to write, every other word was a preposition, but after removing a large majority of them, I came up with the inspiration to write Lovestruck In Time. Although it was mainly if you took doctor who and wrote something that made him fall in love without changing his character or giving him some love potion. I was surprised how absolutely crappy it was. It was basically taking a four year old's writing and removing any adjectives, and replacing them with verbs. This seems to be go rather long again, so I apologize for this, but it is something that is a habit.
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No, I don't have a high tolerance for anything. I was out clubbing with Chris last Sunday. I was off.. read moreNo, I don't have a high tolerance for anything. I was out clubbing with Chris last Sunday. I was offered a, "Jello Shot" which I took. All Monday I was groggy and sleepy.
I take a melatonin 3mg (over-the-counter) medication if I need to sleep. The problem is it's so strong I sleep through the whole day till evening even if it's the morning.
I tried to drink a bottle of wine-cooler one time. I passed out getting halfway through it, so no - I have a low tolerance for medications and liquor. Never had Valium or morphine.
You have Leukemia ? I'm sorry to hear that ... Wishing you the best. And yep, I know about your story, it's a good one and rare - there aren't too many fan-fictions of Doctor Who with the time and effort you've put into it.
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I need at least ten milligrams to help me sleep! I can't believe that it is normally so little! By t.. read moreI need at least ten milligrams to help me sleep! I can't believe that it is normally so little! By the way, Had, past tence, went through chemo, bone marrow transplant, two years out of remission, and thanks for the words on my sotry, lots of time and effort into it.
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Must be rough to go through Chemo. I know Chris's Dad will soon be facing this. You have the support.. read moreMust be rough to go through Chemo. I know Chris's Dad will soon be facing this. You have the support of your friends and family though, right ?
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Family, yes, my friends couldn't visit me though, something about how I hadn't any immune system. Bu.. read moreFamily, yes, my friends couldn't visit me though, something about how I hadn't any immune system. But the only problems that chemo brought about are that I hadn't, aforementioned, no immune system, I also threw up constantly, I had a nutrient I.V. drip that gave me two thousand calories a day and such, (I mentioned to a person that I met that was anorexic and always made fun others because of their weight, so I said "Well, you could try chemo, you don't have to stick you finger down your throat to throw up. Or you could stop eating and get an I.V. drip for nutrients." rather amusing.) But as to Chris's Dad, you should keep an eye on him, and tell him he has my condolences. It can be very rough going through chemo, but some of my friends in the hospital had to go through it many times, they didn't have compatible donors so they had to get their immune system almost wiped out, then rebuilt repeatedly, it sucked more for them, they were going through once every six months.
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Wow, sometimes we never realize how blessed we are until we take a good look around us. I threw up o.. read moreWow, sometimes we never realize how blessed we are until we take a good look around us. I threw up one time 3-years ago from food poisoning and not since more than 15-years before that.
As for Chris's Dad, the doctor said it is doubtful he will live another 6-months if the chemo is ineffective. While I'm not obese, I could stand to lose a few. I blame Seroquel which one of the side-effects is weight gain.
I see Chris every Sunday so he keeps me updated to his status.
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That's too bad, but normally chemo is effective within two, maybe three days. And I understand the b.. read moreThat's too bad, but normally chemo is effective within two, maybe three days. And I understand the blame of weight gain due to meds, one of mine made me gain five pounds in a month, and I normally gain that much in a year.
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What meds were you taking that caused the weight gain ?
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One called meggace, that was meant to make me gain weight, (Although they didn't realize how effecti.. read moreOne called meggace, that was meant to make me gain weight, (Although they didn't realize how effective it would be with me, it was like, 100 mg before each meal.) and the other had a long, hard to pronounce name that I never bothered with. And I normally can tell pronunciation by spelling, it was something my English teacher had me do a lot, whenever she saw an unfamiliar word, just goes to show you how strange medicine names can get.
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That's true. Hey, I just noticed, your Avatar has the girl I am showing above for the Chibi of the w.. read moreThat's true. Hey, I just noticed, your Avatar has the girl I am showing above for the Chibi of the week. With the two ties in her hair. What are the odds ? :)
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Easily calculable, but probably not that large, I found this on google images, and thought it was a .. read moreEasily calculable, but probably not that large, I found this on google images, and thought it was a nice image.
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I was just trying to find a new Chibi I hadn't yet posted. Coincidence. Anyways, back to your situat.. read moreI was just trying to find a new Chibi I hadn't yet posted. Coincidence. Anyways, back to your situation, do you lose much school time since you're on chemo ?
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Half a year, I got, and I think it was ironic, the citizenship award. I didn't really miss much, jus.. read moreHalf a year, I got, and I think it was ironic, the citizenship award. I didn't really miss much, just basic math and English, only stuff I'v studied before.
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I remember being tutored at home after I was in a serious accident. I was on my bicycle and got hit .. read moreI remember being tutored at home after I was in a serious accident. I was on my bicycle and got hit by a car going 40mph. Messed up my arms and legs for a-while. What is this about a Citizenship Award ?
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OWCH! That would have to hurt, but the citizenship award was exactly what it sounds like, and award .. read moreOWCH! That would have to hurt, but the citizenship award was exactly what it sounds like, and award for the most "Well behaved and helpful individual" in the school, load of crap, the half of the year, I was in the hospital. So unless telling people what was going to be happening, or if everyone in the school was an absolute (pardon my french) A*S, then I don't see how I got it. After I went into the hospital, I stayed there for a month and had to let my immune system recover, so I was out the rest of the year, it started in October and ended around the end of it. But after that I was video chatting with my class, only allowed during math class for whatever reason. But even then, all I did was sit on my comfortable couch, and answer simple math questions from classes I missed, nearly never missing them, and being the example of someone who can answer a question.
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So part of the citizenship award was cause you were quiet in class, albeit, you were not in class at.. read moreSo part of the citizenship award was cause you were quiet in class, albeit, you were not in class at all ? :) I remember getting little green squares from my 3rd grade teacher. She would give them to me if I was especially well-behaved while the rest of the class was going ape. I could redeem them in the main office. One green square counted for 2-pachinko balls as there was a pachinko machine in there.
That machine fascinated me. I remember really getting especially lucky one time and I hit the biggest prize where 50-new balls came down. It was after school and I stayed an hour to play and see what else there was. The principal there said she would save my place so I could continue the next day.
Being a smart-a*s though and well-behaved had it's problems. You immediately became bait for bullies and it was passed down from class to school that I was a prime target for abuse.
If you aren't back in school yet, you may have some bullies looking for you, I don't know.
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Oh, I'm back in scool. Remission for 2 years, 3 in school. And bullies leave me allone. You see, I l.. read moreOh, I'm back in scool. Remission for 2 years, 3 in school. And bullies leave me allone. You see, I look like your sterotypicle thin smart a*s, so one day, in 4th, a kid tried to jump me in the bathroom, so I hopped over the door and punched his gut. He dubbled over and I gained a reputation as "bad-a*s nerd." not my words. And the entire football team sticks up for me, so no worry there. But I'm not familiare with the in school pichinco. We just had green, yellow and red cards.
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Quite a few deleted comments above. :) So were the colored cards for reprimand or privilege ?
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Punishment, no real consequences, but I hit the post button too many times.
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Leaving Elementary and Middle, we had no such cards. You did something wrong, you got sent to the pr.. read moreLeaving Elementary and Middle, we had no such cards. You did something wrong, you got sent to the principal's office and he would then spank you and send you back. I remember the early principal from 3rd grade.
His eyesight was so bad he was whipping air but I'd howl all the same like he was skinning me alive. :)
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Well, that's a different generation, in most places, it's illegal to spank a kid. But I think it wou.. read moreWell, that's a different generation, in most places, it's illegal to spank a kid. But I think it would make our system better if they had some form of physical labor for them to do, all dependent on the child. Although, that could work against the system, because, I mean, it looks like I couldn't lift fifty pounds, but I can easily lift one hundred fifty pounds without breaking a sweat. So really, it depends on who you ask.
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Truly I'm not certain what they use for discipline in schools today - aside from perhaps confiscatin.. read moreTruly I'm not certain what they use for discipline in schools today - aside from perhaps confiscating cellphones which might make a dent in someone's behavior. :)
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Not even a dent, but there are some others, like extra homework no one does, detentions that no one .. read moreNot even a dent, but there are some others, like extra homework no one does, detentions that no one really cares about, and other stupid things. That's part of the reason that the schools suck.
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Well both the teachers and staff there are just trying to maintain order. I know, when the teacher i.. read moreWell both the teachers and staff there are just trying to maintain order. I know, when the teacher is away, the whole class likely goes ape, but did you ever ask yourself WHY the class does this ?
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Actualy, yes. As you may know I consider myself to have too much time on my hands. This is how I cam.. read moreActualy, yes. As you may know I consider myself to have too much time on my hands. This is how I came to writing. So, often times, I'd ponder random crap, and eventualy, even philosophy gets boring (#I'm cool.(I hate hashtags)) so I studied habits of random people. I began keeping a little note book labled "observations" (on a side note, in this book, I noticed that female teachers seemed unusualy snapy, and I kept track of this, eventualy realizing that it was a near monthly cycle and then that it was their periods. I was extra nice on the time of the months, just to be safe.) in it, I saw a progrezsion throughout the day, and eventualy discovered the reason this happens, (for those of you who don't know, I'm 14.) They recognize figures of authority, but were considered cowards if they didn't act out. (David, I'm sorry, but for the foreseeable future, I can't watch videos, the dievise I'm using doesn't work with java. So I couldn't watch the video.)
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Oh ? That link above ? It's just to a single picture.
I never did understand what hash tags ar.. read moreOh ? That link above ? It's just to a single picture.
I never did understand what hash tags are. I figured they might be a nice way to advertise my novel, but I wouldn't want to be a pest to others additionally.
As for knowing when your teachers are under stress, that's very kind of you.
I remember one teacher I had, Mr. Simmons, he was always getting on someone's case for the slightest little thing. He's the one that gave me a C+ for my, "Legends" poem, simply because I could not describe or tell him what a Grith was. It was just the way it came out.
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Hashtags are now just a joke, don't advertise with it. And there is always a mean teacher, most of m.. read moreHashtags are now just a joke, don't advertise with it. And there is always a mean teacher, most of mine just knew I was a jacck a*s and smart a*s. But girth is an off thing to be considered worthy to make someone give a C pluse. And I tried to accses it, even wrote it down and urled it, my ds (yes, ds) doesn't like it.
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You can Google it additionally if bit.ly doesn't work for you,
"dw817 legends poem"
read moreYou can Google it additionally if bit.ly doesn't work for you,
"dw817 legends poem"
Of all the teachers I had, I think the only one I became friends with my music teacher. Lots of good times in that class.
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Of all the teachers I had, I think the only one I became friends with my music teacher. Lots of good times in that class.
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Music classes are nice, and I could always do an interesting falseto.
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I have heard that term but I do not know what it means. What is Falseto ?
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A falseto is when someones voice is different from when they sing, my voice, for example, is an A#, .. read moreA falseto is when someones voice is different from when they sing, my voice, for example, is an A#, but my range is two octaves higher and lower, if someone changes their voice, then thats a falseto.
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Wow, that's a gift. I can only sing at the same pitch my voice is. No Falseto about it. I remember b.. read moreWow, that's a gift. I can only sing at the same pitch my voice is. No Falseto about it. I remember being in choir, however, and one new singer we had could sing especially deep so he headed up the baritone selection. :)
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I think I spelling it wrong, but it is a common thing in my family. But I can do two octaves instead.. read moreI think I spelling it wrong, but it is a common thing in my family. But I can do two octaves instead of one. If you want to learn to, when you swollow, your uvula lifts, your adam's/eve's apple lifts and lowers, if you can do that your own, then that changes your voice.
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I know when I was smaller I did perfect soprano. Even won a gold award for it. Pretty embarrassing r.. read moreI know when I was smaller I did perfect soprano. Even won a gold award for it. Pretty embarrassing really I thought. Later my singing voice deepened and I think now I'm an alto.
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Well, I always felt embarrassed when someone would hear me sing, but... a gold mettle, that's kind o.. read moreWell, I always felt embarrassed when someone would hear me sing, but... a gold mettle, that's kind of funny, for singing that is. But I shouldn't be talking about funny things to get mettles from, I mean, I got a mettle for a 100% on one of the simplest test, the Ohio Achievement Assessment. It was the most basic math test I've done.
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That's very good, Jewel ! Have you ever had your Intelligence Quotient tested ?
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Sorry about that deleted comment, using a tablet. At some point, yes, two or three years ago. They h.. read moreSorry about that deleted comment, using a tablet. At some point, yes, two or three years ago. They had to test me to see if I still needed an I.E.P. I never needed, but when you go through cancer, a year to a year and a half. It was like 120, 130, told me I should go to a gifted school, but there are none in my town, use, I wouldn't go either way, too boring, none that I would relate to. The test itself was only 45 to 50 questions, four extended response (4-5) , eight short answer (2) and the rest were multiple choice. One good thin is to come o f it, I'm getting a scholarship when I go to college, that, my grade and cancer will let me go anywhere, so. But if you look up my name you will only find stuff on cancer and the test.
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I took an extensive one as my Dad worked for MENSA, it was 168. I suspect it's quite a bit lower tod.. read moreI took an extensive one as my Dad worked for MENSA, it was 168. I suspect it's quite a bit lower today since I'm on meds that flatten my thinking since I'm bipolar. Ah well. :)
If you want to drop a link where I can find you on the Internet, that would be fine and I would certainly look at your grades and scores.
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Just look up Caleb coltman, and at one point, I was on meds that effectively made me confused and fe.. read moreJust look up Caleb coltman, and at one point, I was on meds that effectively made me confused and feel drunk. But, funny thing, most of my best friends are bipolar, of course you can't claim someone to have a mental disability unless it's a learning defect, so none of them are on meds.
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I found you in Youtube, but you don't explain your Leukemia in there.
http://bit.ly/UcwN60 read moreI found you in Youtube, but you don't explain your Leukemia in there.
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That was from when I was sure that I could be populare on YouTube. It was pretty pointless. Oh well.. read moreThat was from when I was sure that I could be populare on YouTube. It was pretty pointless. Oh well. Well the channel could stand to be shut down. But there isn't much to luminous, it was part of me, it tried to stay alive, but got killed by a round of chemo. To quote john green "pain demands to be felt." So I felt it and kicked it in the nuts.NEC since October 2010. I really just miss a few friends from the hospital and being treated like a kid and now just treated like I should know everything and be mature, almost adult, with no perks of being an adult. Even so, I did have cancer perks, (forementioned college scholarship.)
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I made a site in Youtube as well. Youtube kept banning my uploaded videos so I finally gave up and o.. read moreI made a site in Youtube as well. Youtube kept banning my uploaded videos so I finally gave up and only posted content from my video-camera.
I did find, however, you can post any video at all in Google Docs and nothing is deleted or banned there. It's a little harder to use but worth it in the long run.
As for your time in the hospital, it sounds to me like you've done quite a bit of maturing. The longest I was ever in the hospital was one-month.
Me and Dad were visiting a friend at a farm. I was 5-years old. I saw a doggy and got on all fours to pet him. He was across the way, then I heard something metallic break and a voice said, "He's loose, watch out !"
I looked to see a horse coming right at me ! Dad said get out of the way but it was too late. The horse trampled me and ran on. I was in serious condition as my chest was cut open. After that I was in the hospital for a full month.
I remember Dad bringing me coloring books, Crayons, notepad paper, comic books, and a big Easter Basket full of candy and stuff on Easter Day as I was still in the hospital.
Even when I got out I had to be careful and couldn't attend P.E., Gym, or anything that stretched my chest.
Today I still have a scar on my belly to remind me.
Jewel, are you an outpatient or do you have to stay in the hospital now ?
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No, I don't, luckily. You need to be in stable conditions outsider the hospital for a time. And I kn.. read moreNo, I don't, luckily. You need to be in stable conditions outsider the hospital for a time. And I know what it feels like in a small scale, my uncle's horse stomped on my foot one time, hurt pretty awfully. Do you still have breathing problems.
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Not today, Jewel. That was a long time ago. Are you expected to re-enter the hospital or are they do.. read moreNot today, Jewel. That was a long time ago. Are you expected to re-enter the hospital or are they done for now ?
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I go back every year now, no longer have to have a hole drilled into my back for bone marrow. When I.. read moreI go back every year now, no longer have to have a hole drilled into my back for bone marrow. When I first got out of the hospital, I had to go the times a week. And it was a two hour drive each time. But the nurses at the hospital were nice, the three signs of a good nurse are as follows, doesn't talk down to you like your four, didn't make fun of your disease/disability, and draws blood the first time. I had a nurse that was on her first day, but none told me, so I had been ready for a normal blood draw, and give Times before they called another nurse who got out first, and then drink a quart of barium mixed with Gatorade that tastes like pike with the subtle taste you get when you smell ammonia.
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I remember drinking barium myself many years ago, I can't remember what it was for. Yes, it doesn't .. read moreI remember drinking barium myself many years ago, I can't remember what it was for. Yes, it doesn't taste good.
I had heard (I think ?) that they have found a better way to do this and with less liquid ?
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They have, if it was Orange that is. That means it was a dye for an x-Ray. Tastes like absolute crap.. read moreThey have, if it was Orange that is. That means it was a dye for an x-Ray. Tastes like absolute crap, they told me that if I threw it up, I had to start again.
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Same here. I wanted to purge it so bad. But - I kept it down and they X-rayed me. I hope in the futu.. read moreSame here. I wanted to purge it so bad. But - I kept it down and they X-rayed me. I hope in the future they find a way to do it with a single injection or something. And - I guess it's good to know I've been out of the hospital (physical one anyways) for many years now. :)
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Normally they can use M.R.I.s but the electricity used in them, some need their own generator. The b.. read moreNormally they can use M.R.I.s but the electricity used in them, some need their own generator. The barium is simply much cheaper. But that was an interesting metaphors, a non-physical hospital. What was it you exactly meant by that, that your own mind is a hospital? Also, have you noticed that there are 70 comments on this one comment? Rather large number of you ask me.
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By physical hospital, I mean the one that fixes broken bones and stuff. As for mental hospital, I wa.. read moreBy physical hospital, I mean the one that fixes broken bones and stuff. As for mental hospital, I was just released 2-months ago. Basically I was off my meds. Do you take any anti-psychotics along with them working on your Leukemia ?
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You can't legally give a minor anti-psychotics, but by mental, I meant a hospital that you kind of f.. read moreYou can't legally give a minor anti-psychotics, but by mental, I meant a hospital that you kind of forced yourself into by a mental confinement. Plus it wasn't physiologically scaring, but I took a pain reliever called adavain.
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Do you mean Ativan ? That's Lorezepam, I was on it for a few years but it didn't seem to help. I tak.. read moreDo you mean Ativan ? That's Lorezepam, I was on it for a few years but it didn't seem to help. I take Seroquel 400mg at night now to keep the demons at bay. Seems to work fairly well except that at night I have many more dreams than I used to.
And let me tell you something. Mental Wards are not good, by that, I mean a place to stay for your safety. I've been to 4-different ones and they all have the same problems. Patients who threaten you, violate your space, and your sense of peace. Also a few sinister doctors with ulterior motives. I relate one in my book HERE,
http://bit.ly/1rrAQtP
I've had an MRI and an EEG done. Dad was there and - while I never saw the results, something there upset him. He never again questioned how well or poor I was doing in school, and we went for ice-cream after the tests.
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Yes, it was adivan, and that isn't what I meant either.but I don't think I'll try again,I don't thin.. read moreYes, it was adivan, and that isn't what I meant either.but I don't think I'll try again,I don't think I'd be able to explain properly. But I am sorry that you have that problem.
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Just by your relation I wanted to warn you of mental wards, if your family is thinking of putting yo.. read moreJust by your relation I wanted to warn you of mental wards, if your family is thinking of putting you there since Ativan is linked to mental illness. Glad you're not in this situation and you have a loving family that is caring for you ...
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Thanks, but the meds were for the pain, chemo therapy kills your immune system, so... and thanks for.. read moreThanks, but the meds were for the pain, chemo therapy kills your immune system, so... and thanks for the warning. But the last time some one tried to hold me in confinement, it drove every one else insane (ie: the immunization ward) and a while ago, I had a panic attack of sorts, for me they last days of me being stressed out worried and paranoid, so I locked myself in a room with food for lunch if I couldn't escape and put as much effort into making it impossible for me to get out, and I was creative, this includes a circuit that if it does sensing a laser at a certain level, then it would pop up a cardboard human shape that had varying thickness according to where it was on the body, and this was a laser grid with quarter inch gaps between each lining, I had allot of time on my hands.I also learned complex fencing, improvised weaponry, how to use a blade of any kind as a weapon, and a simple krav magha. Needless to say, that rarely occurs. Oh, and I only took it for a month, th adivan.
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Sensing a laser at a certain level ? Umm - this totally confused me, and yes, we do have a few posts.. read moreSensing a laser at a certain level ? Umm - this totally confused me, and yes, we do have a few posts in here now. :)
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At a certain frequency and brightness.it was a bit of a pain to do this with inferred lasers.
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By the way, 51 therapist "do you ever talk to inanimate objects?" Me "yes, but they almost never res.. read moreBy the way, 51 therapist "do you ever talk to inanimate objects?" Me "yes, but they almost never respond, very rude."
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If I stop taking my meds, I do talk to inanimate objects, my teddy bears, however, very politely, th.. read moreIf I stop taking my meds, I do talk to inanimate objects, my teddy bears, however, very politely, they do respond and talk back to me. :)
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Believe our not, that was an actual conversation I had with a school counselor. They needed to decid.. read moreBelieve our not, that was an actual conversation I had with a school counselor. They needed to decide weather or not I needed an I.E.P. I never needed in the first place, the look on his face was priceless, after which they decided I was mentally unstable, but did not needed a I.E.P. although, they couldn't actually call me mentally unstable until I'm 18.
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Closest thing I had to IEP was SRC, Student Rehabilitation Council. I was placed in a special class .. read moreClosest thing I had to IEP was SRC, Student Rehabilitation Council. I was placed in a special class of one with no teacher and lots of books. I was given homework but I never did it. Instead I read and read and READ books, all kinds. When I was finally checked up on, they realized I did no homework but did read, and they said that's fine. So long as I wasn't getting into anymore trouble.
S.R.C. was chosen for me as I had finally had it with a bully at school and attacked him with a padlock on my grip like a brass knuckle around my index finger. I was underage so this was the closest thing to jail they could get for me since I seriously injured him.
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That's unfortunate, now they have a law, and that would have been self-defense. I was bullied, as I .. read moreThat's unfortunate, now they have a law, and that would have been self-defense. I was bullied, as I have mentioned, and one kid tried attacking me in the bathroom when I nearly broke for of his fingers in second grade. Needless to say, the kid accused me of attacking him, even though he's a pathological lirer, so I had to write "I will not lie or hurt a fellow student" two-hundred times every recess, every half hour recess for a month, needles to say, I gave that teacher hell for the year, he hated me, and, I feel like Tyr's actions reports teachers is a general way I'd give him hell, he eventually quit his job, (after two months.) He hated me, and understand why I did what I did. Pissed him off so much.
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Sorry about the bad grammar there, this tablet doesn't like me using it for this but it's still I ha.. read moreSorry about the bad grammar there, this tablet doesn't like me using it for this but it's still I have.
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That's fine. That was the only fight I ever got into where I came out ahead. Oddly enough it did hur.. read moreThat's fine. That was the only fight I ever got into where I came out ahead. Oddly enough it did hurt my middle finger to smack him with the padlock even though the metal ring never touched my finger.
That's a gyp to have to write 6,000 times what you wrote. I think I had that one time and Dad helped me by printing it on his computer at work. :) The teacher wasn't pleased but - hey - I did what she said and it was all typed out neatly.
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I did a similar thing in art when there teacher had everyone write "I will be quite in class three h.. read moreI did a similar thing in art when there teacher had everyone write "I will be quite in class three hundred times over night, so I typed it once, and copy pasted it until I had enough. I printed fourteen copies for the people who never talked in my class, but there was a class of 36 students. She got irritated, even though she never said by hand, a friend of mines mother called and complained. She nearly four fires because of it.
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Four Fires - do you mean there was a fire in the school or the teacher was almost fired 4 times ?read moreFour Fires - do you mean there was a fire in the school or the teacher was almost fired 4 times ?
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Sorry, I'm using a tablet with some weird typing. But I don't know how it got that from she nearly q.. read moreSorry, I'm using a tablet with some weird typing. But I don't know how it got that from she nearly quit because of it, I'm very talented with screwing that kind of thing up.
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Sorry, I'm using a tablet with some weird typing. But I don't know how it got that from she nearly q.. read moreSorry, I'm using a tablet with some weird typing. But I don't know how it got that from she nearly quit because of it, I'm very talented with screwing that kind of thing up.
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Well that's fine. I type everything I do. I don't use a speech-to-text. And I usually type 135wpm wi.. read moreWell that's fine. I type everything I do. I don't use a speech-to-text. And I usually type 135wpm with the keyboard at a hard angle to force accuracy out of me. :)
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I normally top out at 120 WPM, that's why I take so long to write a story. But I'm actually not havi.. read moreI normally top out at 120 WPM, that's why I take so long to write a story. But I'm actually not having as much of a problem with the speech, as with a weird autocorrect system on the Amazon kindle. But I do the same with the Angel thing, what happened in my computers class, the teacher for pissy with me over it, even though I typed faster than her.
Woops ! I rebooted my computer, I see it duplicated the text, scratch that. In any case, I might sug.. read moreWoops ! I rebooted my computer, I see it duplicated the text, scratch that. In any case, I might suggest you don't use any auto-correct. I certainly don't when I work on my stories. What is the Angel thing ?
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Sorry, I can't turn off the autocorrect on the tablet, it also takes what you type, even if its a wo.. read moreSorry, I can't turn off the autocorrect on the tablet, it also takes what you type, even if its a word, then it turns it to the word it thinks is most likely to be used, angle is what I meant, like how you turn the keyboard to the side.
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I see. And yes, the teacher would want you to type with the keyboard level. I know when I was learni.. read moreI see. And yes, the teacher would want you to type with the keyboard level. I know when I was learning typing back in school the teacher insisted I use all 10-fingers. But they got in my way. Today I type at my good speed using only 4-fingers. Two thumbs, two index fingers, one left pinky occasionally for far reaches. :)