Can't you see?

  I’m running out of hope

and I’m taken for granted. 

I can’t stand it.

I’ve been hiding in my tears for the last time.

I don’t want death,

I just want the pain.

Something I can control,

something no one else can understand.

Can’t you see?

This is my last resort.

My last escape.

I’m lost in my own emotions.

You've taken all that is left in me.

Nothing I ever do will be able to satisfy what you want

from me.

I carve my mistakes in my arm each day

and hope one day it will all come to a close.

I’m counting up the days in which you notice my smile has faded.

I’m not your innocent little girl anymore.

I’m sorry for what I might have done

for you to feel this way towards me.

I try so hard not to care what you scream,

directed towards me.

But somehow,

I still do.

So much.

Can’t you see?

It’s because of you that I do this to myself.

I wish you would understand my point of view.

It’s a love hate relationship.

I love you,

but hate the things you have done to me.

I love you,

but I hate your voice.

I love you,

but I hate myself.

Call me stupid. 

Call me a s**t.

Call me anything you desire.

Can’t you see?

No matter what,

I still love you. 

Author's Note

Anything you want to say, say it.

Reviews

[Wildecat]

This tugged at the heart strings. Totally dislike any kind of abuse. My heart goes out to anyone in this situation.

[blah]

I can relate to this, very touching & hits home. good job!

[T]

A very straight forward emotional poem ... Wonderfully expressed ... Keep on keeping on :) hugs

[Harlow Aaron]

This is very touching and I know the feeling well of this poem. I like the way you still love them no matter what the things you hate of them. It's very well written!