the day i lost myself.

12.12.07

December 12, 2007.

The day I lost myself.

No one thought I would be the one to break.

I was the person who smiled too much.

Laughed at whatever came my way. 

It's funny how,

I could feel so much yet couldn't say a word.

I was lost in my own thoughts.

It was like my own little world.

I felt as if no one understood the real me.

Not even the closest of my friends.

I trusted no one.

And expected too much.

I seemed like the average girl on the outside.

But there was another me inside just dying.

I wanted to find myself.

And show others that I'm not who they thought I was.

December 12, 2007.

The day I lost myself.

I looked in the mirror.

For what I thought would be the last time.

Tears fled my face.

I was powerless.

Razor in one hand.

My wrist executed in mid air.

This was my last resort.

December 12, 2007.

The day I lost myself.

My wrist rose.

The razor got closer and closer.

My face streamed.

I couldn't see straight.

It was all a blur.

One last look in the mirror...

The razor dropped in what seemed like slow motion.

I starred motionless.

December 12, 2007.

The day I lost myself.

Reviews

[Wondering Mind]

Avery heartfelt, raw and sincere write. Perfect spoken form.

[krissie]

this poem touched me. i love the way you write.

[Harlow Aaron]

I really feel the deep feeling lying within this poem. I know what's it like to feel this way and I believe you captured the exact feeling of how one could feel. Amazing job! =D