letters to no one. 2

In particular...

Dear everyone I ever really loved

This may be no shock to you, but I've acted like an a*****e.

I am the one beside myself right now, in your old ghostly place.

I feel like I should explain, and not excuse myself.

I needed to be right, and was damn good at it.

I had the perfectly constructed proof to show you wrong, over and over again.

You had the insight into the mutual feeling that I would drown in the dark.

This is where you always find me,

with a sharpened tongue and calloused heart,

I can't see out, but you see in.

But you loved me, you saw what I couldn't believe.

So I would never take your word for it.

Though I kept you at arms length.

There is a name for people like that.

Now I'm learning how to listen , and live without answers.

Whats being right anyways?

Who needs it?

Either way, and eventually, we'll all grow out of ourselves.

So now I just want to stand as close to the edge of the world with you

and give back whatever we don't call, "impossible".