Contradictio Contradictionum

Contradicting contradictions

   Hard to breath 

a deluge of tears streak my face 

tight chest with each beat of the heart 

memories mock 

was it real 

when does the ride end 

late night musings

 early morning thoughts 

why does isolation feel so claustrophoic 

why can't I be alone 

I check my phone still no response 

its been a week and still no text 

what was the reason 

there goes my chest again 

tears now water the keyboard 

does this writing even help 

what is the point 

don't break down 

don't break down 

I am down in my spirit 

I will never love again 

I don't want to be alone 

I am now two in one 

I don't need love 

desparatly I need to love 

turbulent torment 

where are the plans we were making 

the future is dark 

I once knew what it held 

leave me alone 

I dont want to be alone 

I feel crazy 

I feel sane 

I feel nothing 

I feel everything 

sleep is my only refuge 

I dream of her 

there is no rest 

I wander in my mind wondering what was the point 

I actually believed everything happens for a reason 

my reason for joy has left 

there 

thats all for now 

wait theres more..............

please help 

please leave me alone 

I don't want ot be alone 

I don't know what I want.........

 

Author's Note

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