I have to go to bed........

Sometimes no matter how tired you are, you just can't sleep....

In the quite chill of evenings repose, 

silent the house is still.  

Only my mind stirs, thoughts dance, 

clamorously vying for my attention, 

"Please just leave me be", 

I plead with them, 

"Be still, can't you see I'm trying to sleep" 

I command them, still the dance continues.  

Heart racing for tomorrows demands, 

that haunt my longing reverie, 

"Oh, Hypnos visit me" 

I hushedly whisper to myself.  

Three chimes ring out, 

"Is it really so late, or so early?" I think, 

what will be the name of this evenings savoir?  

Shall he be called Benadryl or possibly Melatonin, 

no I think I shall sip with mistress Chamomile.  

The ritual complete I greedily drink, 

every last drop is down my gullet, 

as Hypnos does his work I head to bed.  

Sleep at last, 

"Oh void take me now" I think

.......Suddenly........

as if being resurrected from graveyards rest, 

my alarm does the job it was created to do, 

"Really?" 

6 a.m. time to go to work......

Author's Note

Please just let me sleep....

Reviews

[Brandy]

It's torture. You want to sleep so badly, but you're wide awake.
Your thoughts are going in many different directions . .

Soothing music certainly helps. It does me, anyway.

Hopefully you'll sleep like a dream tonight. : )

[Dave W.]

It was rough last night, a stuffy nose but I did pass out eventually

[Brandy]

Being sick isn't fun. I hope you feel better soon.

[Lorry]

Ah, the dreaded silly o'clock blues.
I am now older and quite a fan of silly O'c**k in the morning for its quiet contemplative stillness, but before the tyranny of lockdown I wasn't such a big fan.
I even watched YouTube videos of inner calm and came to the conclusion that some may well work, but boring someone to sleep isn't what I was after.
I came across a video of some Buddhist fella who was into mindfulness and a follower of Thich Nhat Hanh and gave it ago and even with my sceptic chip level already at nine, I was out like a light in minutes and woke up feeling like I'd just woke from a year long coma.
The just of it was to picture some place from childhood you enjoyed being, then picture the horizon and go towards it. I pictured being at the seaside and was instantly transported to the horizon and just accepted it, instead of wondering if I had flown or swam there. Then it tells you to turn and look at yourself and then it got a bit freaky, but I think the book was called the miracle of mindfulness and if it can work for me, I'm sure it can work for you too. If not, at least you can watch the flames as you throw it into the fire!
😃

[Dave W.]

Great advice, some nights I win the battle and some not so much.

[Ern M. Yoshimoto]

i've had nights like that when i can't sleep at all, and i hate it almost as much as you do. i take lemborexant, FYI. i hope you get some sound sleep tonight, but as my psychiatrist recommends, wanting to fall asleep has the opposite effect. yeah... it's not great advice, but it's the only advice that i received for this problem.

[Dave W.]

Sleep is an elusive mistress