To lose.....

I promise this is a short-term thing, things will change.....

Why can't I lose this feeling familiar, 

I am here once again alone, alone again, here is where I am.  

I am so good at losing things, 

losing friends, losing love, losing my way, 

losing my cool, losing my vision, losing my nerve, 

yet to lose this feeling I can't do, 

this feeling of isolation, 

this feeling of alone, 

this feeling of longing for a cloud, 

this feeling of dissatisfaction, 

hungry for another yet I don't want anyone.   

Freedom from feeling, 

just to be numb is what I would like for Christmas this year, 

unfortunately, Santa doesn't exist.  

I am sure things will get better, 

yet maybe there is a little farther to go, 

you never know what you can handle, 

until you have to handle a heavy burden, 

this burden is a buttload   

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Milena Grubor]

I really feel all of the emotions here. Things always get better, even though the road is thorny, always after night the sun shines again with the strongest light. So, even after suffering new happiness is born again. Never lose hope. Thanks for sharing.

[Dave W.]

Thankfully the feeling passes, thankfully we can write to get it all out, the night I wrote this was a low point that has since passed, thank you for the review.

[Brandy]

Remember, there's always sunshine after the rain. Just keep looking up. Find that cloud to float upon . . .

Blessings truly surround you, Dave. : )

[Dave W.]

I agree and am thankful I just had to vent when there was sadness.

[Brandy]

I understand, Dave. You needed to let your emotions free.

If you haven't noticed, I see the lighter side of things. : ) That's just me and my personality.

[Dave W.]

I have noticed, I like talking with you, you are a positive person and I appreciate that

[Brandy]

It's nice talking to you, too. Your kindness is appreciated. : )

[Dave W.]

Yeah you as well, thank you for the talk.

[Snow_]

wow i wanna be you....like the me in the past

[Dave W.]

What do you mean?

[Snow_]

I mean i wanna be like brandy....like the past me....very happy...looking only on the clouds....positicity

[Dave W.]

Oh fare enough

[jacob erin-cilberto]

The understanding of it all is a victory in itself...the speaker will start hanging on to things once he has that understanding.
j.

[Dave W.]

Thank you for the review