I’m lost
In thoughts
About my life
And I have come
To realize
That the people
That are my "friends"
Hardly know anything about me
Okay some know that I’m bi
And that I like to write poetry
But they don’t know
how I feel everyday
When people ignore me
When I’m trying to make a point
Or when I try to talk to them
About how I feel
And they start talking
About their problems.
I’m lost
In the crowd
Nobody sees me
Nobody wants to
I’m wallpaper
Sometimes
People
That are my "friends"
Pass by me
And don’t realize
How much they have hurt me
By not noticing
That there is a person
Hiding within
Some people treat me
Like if I’m their pet
I’m older than most of my "friends"
And they still tell me what to do
Like if I’m a watch dog
There for their amusement
And to give them proctection
So it needs to pay attention
So that he can get his treat.
Or a piece of meat
That is there
To be chewed
and then thrown
Aside because its too raw.
I’m lost in thoughts
About everything
From friends
To teachers
To my coach
That only have eyes
For all my flaws.
I’m lost
I’m frozen
In place
Not knowing
What to do
Either fall apart
Or smile
And pretend everything
Is alright.
I’m lost
To this world
Its like if I was a ghost