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My headaches 
Have become unbearable 
I keep forgetting 
Where I put things 
I’m depress all the time 
Tears slip out 
And I have no control over it 
What is wrong with me? 
Why have I become socially inept? 
I scream at my brother 
That the tv is too loud 
When its just above mute 
I can’t get myself to do anything 
But 
Read, take a shower, lay in bed 
and read some more 
Is it always going to be this way? 
Am I alway going to feel like I’m strapped to a bed? 
Will I always let my life by ruled by 
A migraine?