Fallible departing[4-13-09]

for my 15 year old little brother. I love you, Bubby, Nathan.

I'm psychotic, I'm twisted
Just realized, I missed it
My bubby, my baby
I love you so much
I remember, when I held you
-And how you loved my sweet touch.
When you cried, I was there
Now my hugs, don't show I care
I reach out to touch you
-without success, I just stare.
You think I don't love you
I know you hurt for me to
But truly, I do
I'm just crazy. -It's true.
I've loved you so deeply
From your very first breath
I just pray that you reach me
-Believe me
      -Now, rest.
I set out to show you
The love I do hold
But my words cannot reach you
They Freeze, Fall, and Fold.
Now, -Let's be bold.
I'm two souls in a body
I'm Susan and Bobby
Pikklez and Kali
The big finale
"Insane".
I'm two in the same
-Out of my brain.
I fight with myself 
I'm bad for my health.
Words that I plan
Words that I speak
Two different voices
Two different things.
You must know I love you
For you I'd die in a flash
You must know it's true
My words...are tasteless, Perhaps
But inside I'm screaming
"Bubby, I'm here! Relax!!"
If only you knew
What goes through my mind
If you knew the way I love you
I know there's peace you would find.