unDieing Love

Once again i've loved and lost,
A few small tears, One painful cost.
When words of fear and pain arise,
Your jaw will drop to a big surprize.
Mixed emotions I can't explain,
From love to hate and fear to pain.
I meant every word,
Every gripping glare,
But I love you, Mom,
What I said wasn't fair.
My moods ran high,
Like the jet in the sky,
But if you asked, I would say,
"I've no clue why".
Words spat strong,
Strung, Unfair,
I know I was wrong,
Unruly back there.
Forgive me?, Love me?,- Hate me not,
I'm so confused, Give me one more shot?
It hurts real bad, to make you cry,
My heart- it aches, And I hate the reason why.
I see my pain and your pain, more,
It hurts to know I'm who you're dieing for.