Anxiety IIA Poem by Steph CrandallBright lights. Pounding head. Lights too bright to focus. Nausea. Acid churning in my stomach. Curl up in pain under my soft pink blanket in hopes of
salvation. Saltine cracker crumbs spewed over my bed. Pills in a bottle to mask the pain rattle as I hunt for the right cocktail to, for a moment, numb my body for sleep. Trapped. Inside this skull, brain. To scream, to cry with no rationality. Enraged over a busy signal, depressed over missing homework. A lethal dose of alcohol
seems enticing. At least I’d have
fun in my final hours of
consciousness staggering around campus
flipping off my twelve page paper and
cursing music and the distance of a minor
seventh that I could never sing. I take my impressive cocktail of pills. A new mixture
concocted by the psychiatric department
of Hackensack University Medical
Center, claimed to “fix me.” As the
capsules begin to dissolve in the acid
a tranquility flows like a
crazed patient being sedated. © 2011 Steph Crandall |
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