Heartache (part four)

Wednesday is no lynn Wednesday...is your name lynn? then stay the f**k home...b***h

I’m taken out of the big game I’m told to sit down on the bench
Taught to take the heat so I’m now used like a monkey wrench
The rain disperses from the heavens and at full force bombards my feet
Radio miss conception my message declares my own defeat
The devils standing on both of my shoulders for the angel has caught its ride
Lowered to both of my knees as I ask you to be my bride
Silly words and phrases are prepared then dispersed throughout my head
With head phones now on my ears I blast music through my head instead
I sit and hold my breath until my lungs are colored blue
It’s now indiscreetly apparent that I bit off a piece I couldn’t chew
Look into my eyes and without lies please tell me if I’m stable
Can I pick my life apart and then put the food onto the table
After losing the toss I wonder alone and now I’m lost
I’d pay to find the answers but I can no longer afford the cost
Beg like I’m homeless I’ll do just about anything for a little help
An angel with absent wings her touch was like nothing I’d ever felt
Ignorance is no longer bliss its just a new form of denial
Something you tell yourself when your heading downward in a spiral
Neglect all reason I’ll never take you for an answer
Strip me of my flesh and you can watch it kill me like a cancer
The wheel of life is in my hands but for some reason it will not steer
The room is growing blurry just like the after effects of beer
The past is never changing but the future it seems so distant
Rest your head against the glass and do your best now just to listen
The absence is an issue that delivers nothing to me but drama
I’m wheeled into the ER for now I’m dying from the trauma
This time your life’s at stake so don’t go and make the mistake
Your suffering from a dream that we all know you’ll never wake
I try to fake a smile but the strain on my life is all to serious
I never know the answers because I’m broken down and delirious
I’ve got a body full of pain and a heart that’s full of regret
I’ve got all my money on the table but I’ve never been one to bet
Call it what you will but I had every good intention
Scolded for be naughty as I sit in after school detention
It has become clear to me that I’m lost in a dimension where we all struggle for power
Massively disperse my feelings live from the top of a radio tower
You stand tall and strong then you declare to the world your never wrong
A voice that severs ear drums but the people sing your words to every song
I’ll check you into the hospital and then I’ll tell them that your mental
They’ll throw you in a jacket then they’ll fold you up just like a pretzel
You always told the world that you could go and hit the hardest
We now see you drooling from the mouth because they’ve labeled you retarded
Your life’s up on the board and your souls resting in the cards
They’re going to beat you to the punch so that they can give your body scars
The red flags are waving so now you must move ahead with caution
Put the shield in front of your face and hold your ground just like a Spartan
Comforts in the air and its now just out of arms reach
I’ve lathed my skin with sin so I must wash myself with bleach
Its time to start this war for I have heavy arms on board
My singles on the score so I’ll start a continental tour
I’m making myself famous I’ll be found on Hollywood boulevard
I’m told to run to the hills but I know I’ll never make it that far
my strength plummets to nothing I’m now weak inside the knees
The tremor from the collapse is felt inside the states and over seas
A gas mask and a hip flask are made to call and drive attention
It has a tone that seems to chase you down until you find protection
The girl was found as filthy and she put a virus in your c**k
It’s like running through a field to only be picked off by a hawk
Suicidal tendencies are now like cataclysmic melodies
Sprayed your tag on some brick and now being brought up with a felony
I’ve been forced to hold my head up high to keep myself from comatose
I walk inside the crowd but my aura is different then the most
I wrote down my achievements with a pen and a note pad
Hate sphere with an ink schmere the conclusion is that I’m mad
Chronicles of upset I watch as a smile you pursue
Failed to make a mark but made billions on its debut
Broken to pieces so all the parts I’m forced to mend
The light of an angel that’s mixed with a bit of a devilish blend
I gave you the weight of the world and your forced to carry it on your shoulders
Its been equal to the weight of a thousand falling boulders
Dispatched from the rope you now keep sinking down to deep
I tried to walk you down the cliff but the angle was to steep
Every light has been extinguished but I see a glow from underneath the door
I will find myself searching for the source as I’m found crawling on the floor
Parched from a dry throat I retreat to grab myself a drink
All I want to do is sleep but all I ever do is think
D Day as a replay its apparent that were never going to win
Sits back with a six pack wearing nothing but a devilish grin
Love is like a blade that will slowly rip your life apart
Scholars of golden days passed away girls to keep their minds smart
The trees will brightly glisten with night lights and presents
To large to use the chimney but its plain that you feel his presence