His fault

The poem says it all and if you don't get the moral of the story I cant share please enjoy

That moment has come,The unknown is now my biggest fear
The furture that i once knew so well has now become so unclear..
yet i continue to walk forward questioning every step i take,
How come its so easy to cry but so hard to keep a smile so fake?
 
 Who do i trust and who will be there for me in the end
most days its so easy to hate but so hard to recognize a true friend..
This is taking all of me, I feel my end is near,
Can i trust my own shadow when i cant even stand my reflection in the mirror?

 In life we choose to walk a certain path weather it be good or bad
fate designed a choice to be something i never really had..
This isnt what i wanted when i got older but here we are,
Looks like this is the only reason i ever made it this far.

  No amount of tomorrows will ever take the pain away of today
I'm so sick of hearing "Everything will be okay.."
My biggest fear has me shaking from head to toe,
a desicion so hard with emotions only i would know.

 I'm giving up everything and more for a man i barley even know
everything seems to be moving so fast but times going so slow..
So tell me, if you were in my position would you really do the same,
'cause it's easier said than done knowing he's the one to blame.
 
 Everyone has him in mind and ignores the damage for me that's taking place
 the consequences of his actions hold a  mandatory three year sentance that i have to face..
A gamble of my freedom was so eaily made by people of twin falls,
i never should of let them in my brain insisted on building more walls.

 His favorite part was "I never wanted to fall when all i wanted to do was fly"
He was in it for the game for I was stupid enough to believe it was for the ride or die..
In the end i was the one with more damage to my body and to my heart,
i dont hate him for the wreck but having his back is tearing my whole life apart.

 I want to be someone i usually hold back,call him out and put him on the spot
i can't even look at him the same way, holding back tears with my stomach in a knot..
Heven was so close and for some reason i wasnt allowed in,
Purgatory was in arms length but twin falls was my hell for i was in constant sin.

 How many more people have to be destroyed from his stupid mistakes?
he doesn't like to be treated like a punk but hangs with all these fakes..
It's time to pull his head out of his a*s and stop hurting the ones that care,
'cause the next time if this happens again i promise no one like me or myself will be there.