"New Version of Me"

I'll hide the feelings my heart wants me to scream.
Pretend you don't star in every one of my dreams.
My thoughts don't exist, unless you speak them first.
So you'll feel the best, while I'm drowning in worst.

Because I gave too much, while you were too weak.
All of my raw emotions, met with critique.
So I'll sob, by myself, lost in all we should be.
Though you love it, I hate this new version of me.

Reviews

[amorvincitomnia]

I love the emotion you put into your writing. This one in particular reminds me of myself not to long ago. I'd been hurt so badly and so much that I just retreated from the world. It was so hard to see everything I thought we'd have together, that had been built over years together just ripped away like we'd never been anything at all. Nothing can prepare you for that kind of hurt and unless someone has been through it themselves they can never understand it. You feel like you gave everything you had to give only to be told it wasn't enough or that it meant nothing. It took me a long time to come back from that. I missed allot of good things in that time. Don't make the same mistake as I did. Take in account of what you lost, grieve but don't let yourself die inside.Forge ahead with unwavering determination.

[what-the-frick]

Thank you so much! Thank you for sharing your story with me. :)

[amorvincitomnia]

You are very welcome. I've known more loss in love than I'd like to remember but I also know just how good it can feel. It can make you feel like there is nothing you cannot do. From the highest peaks to the lowest valleys it takes us. That's why I'll never shy away from it again.