Change

change is something that i can't get a hold of. no matter what i do. i can't seem to. sometimes changes are good. but to me they cause internal bleeding and cause pain that many humans can't see or even imagine. some people think they know what i go through, but others just stay away knowing that i am not safe. Change is difficult, especially when you're dead. because  death, you can never change. Therefore you're like a robot doing what told, but in this case repeating everything, that leads to your death. confused, scared.

change scares me for no matter what i do. they lead me to you, and for a moment my pain is gone. so therefore i stay. but the moment i leave it comes all back. and the word change is vivid in my mind. and even though i feel as if im dead, i feel confused to the thought of change. i can not. so therefore i stay. living my life with you. and if i did change its because i found something special. that i could never give up. dead or alive