A Deluision

The love I have for you is pointless

 You have no idea who I am or what my name is

 I doubt you even know that I exist

 Even though I know this

 I still try to convince myself that you do know me

 I try to convince myself that you have the same love for me that I have for you

 I live in a distant fantasy and I fear it’s going to drive me to insanity

 Because every day I have to wake up to the cold reality that I’m nothing to you

 That if I’m lying in my death bed, it will not affect you

 Your life will remain consistent

 You won’t be there by my side, like how I dream

 You won’t be there to tell me that everything is going to be alright

 You won’t be there to tell me that I’m not alone

 Nothing will come from you

 Not even a tiny tear drop

 But yet I still find a way to think about you every day

 I still manage to pretend you’re with me when I’m alone at night

 I can still find it in me to say, I love you

 Even if I'm living in a delusion