Evolution

It seems as though I'm able to feel myself evolving,
as if my senses are so acute, I actually experience each
molecule transforming, splitting, expanding.
At times I don't know myself anymore.
and yet
I have the strongest sensation that I am getting closer
to my inception.
I'm becoming the being of my own creation
not the daughter my mother wanted.
Not the person the world/ media wants/expects me to be.
Not a magazine.
It's amazing and beautiful and bizarre all at the same time.
My life is just beginning it seems
and that fills me with excitement because I'm not an infant unknowing,
incapable of being on my own.
Not a child
nor a youth naive.
  I am full grown
and aware.
I have life experience
yet so much more of life to explore
with new eyes
open wide.
Oh
I'm evolving...
into
me.

Aug.27