Some wounds don't heal

I'm sitting on the bathroom floor
Crying my eyes out
Thinking of you
And how I hurt you
All those years ago...
What I did was deplorable
Unforgivable
But I hope you do
Deep down
And deeper
I dont

The days are long
Lonely
Quiet
I'm so tired
I'm so sad
I'm a monster

People always talk about victims
They are the ones who deserve compassion
But
What
About
The perpetrators?
Do they deserve concessions?
The villains are always villains
The heroes always heroes
Can we never redeem ourselves from our sins?
Am I damned?
I hate myself I hate myself I hate myself
I'm fake I'm fake I'm fake
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
Please forgive me stranger
Please forgive myself