I am an AnimalA Chapter by PaulSection 1 of The Me Primer
I am an animal and awful things I am an animal I am an
animal. I am an end result of millions of years of evolution. My sweat glands,
my opposable thumbs, and my large brain are each part of what makes me
well-suited to exploit my environment. These things help me dominate other
animals. I know what I am and how I work best. In this writing I am content to
sound naive and obvious. This will be a touchstone should my thinking become
cynical and convoluted. I am not a doctor of any science and my credentials do
not allow me to be an expert on anything, except myself. As an animal
I am driven to eat, to reproduce and to find a safe place to eat, reproduce and
rest. I affirm that under all of the layers of ideas, on how and why I do these
things, that I am driven like any other animal. This is a simple-sounding
conclusion but believing in this premise puts me at odds with many other
sweating, thumb-wielding, large-brained animals. In fact, they may say I am
wrong in calling them animals. I am not an expert on any of these others, who
are seemingly like me, any more than I am an expert on insects, fish, birds and
other mammals. I will relay my observations on other animals with confidence in
my ability to observe and deduce. I will reserve my most confident tone for how
I function. No footnotes will be necessary. No doctors of anything need pay
attention unless they have an interest in this particular animal. I do not fear
repeating well-worn ideas because I only seek to be understood and to
understand. I am confident that I am an expert at explaining myself to myself. I accept
that what drives me comes from inherited desires, desires to meet certain
needs. The brain I have has evolved over millions of years to manage my bodily
functions. It drives me to seek nourishment and to attempt to reproduce. My brain’s
thought patterns have evolved over my life time to make these things seem more complicated
than the simple acts of satisfying desires. Over the course of my life, I have
been taught that I am more than an animal. This has not only come from
religious teachings but from secular philosophy. I have been taught that I am
under some obligation to make more of myself than a desire-fulfilling upright
mammal. This of course, as any true expert on me will attest, is wrong. As an
animal I am under no obligation to do anything but remedy the hungers that
exist in me. There is no reprimand, at the end of a wild animal’s life, for
spending each day in pursuit of the next meal and the next mate. Why then do I
worry about how I am perceived in pursuing my next meal, a mate, and a period
of secure rest? I have been told that there are right and wrong ways to do these things. That this is so because I am somehow innately different from other animals. I
will not begin from a foundation that has no proof for me. I will begin where I
am sure of myself. I am an animal. Understanding
that I am an animal allows me to answer so many questions about myself that I
have to wonder why it seems so odd to have as a guidepost. I am certain many
others have also come to this understanding. Did they then ask themselves: what if everyone acted like an animal? what if everyone believed that they had no more moral responsibility than a dog? And this stopped these
thinkers from this line of inquiry. Is this how to arrive at answers, rejecting
an idea because, if it is true, the consequences might be ugly? I do not believe
so but I believe this has happened all through the history of philosophy,
psychology, political science and kitchen table arguments. As an animal I have
no obligations to believe in right or wrong sex or a right or wrong way of
getting nourishment. If I am attracted to another, I try to have sex with the
other. If I am hungry, I try to eat something. However, as the animal I have
become I have been taught how I should get things that I want. I am leashed.
There are rules that I have been trained to follow. I must recognize that
this mentality has been formed by the society I live in and by my place in that
society; not because it had to be formed, but because it was formed and seems
to work for much of the time. These rules were made long before I was born and I
believe in most of these rules. I also believe that when the rules are not followed
it is not an aberration, it is an animal acting like an animal. In an extreme example, what if I were
a human-animal that had a habit of rubbing my genitalia on strangers? I should
not need to hear, “What is wrong with him?”; I instead should hear, “He has not
been trained properly”. This is how I would judge any animal that I would see
doing this. I would say that this animal was not taught how to suppress his
animal desires in order to fit into this circumstance, “bad dog”.
This simplifies many ideas of individual treatment. I would be treated for
inappropriate behavior in a circumstance not for sexual deviance. I
would not have to work backwards. I would not hear, “let’s see why you are such
a degenerate, how have you become this monster”, but instead would hear, “you
need to suppress your animal desires so that you can live in this society.” The
person offering this advice could offer ideas on how to become trained. That
person may even have ideas on why the training was never accomplished to begin with
but this would all come down to me having to say, “I want to be in this human
animal society so please train me properly” or “I like how I am, deal with me”.
This needs to be more than just an exercise in behavioral psychology. It needs
to be more than tasering me every time I think about rubbing my genitals on a
stranger or giving me a biscuit when I sit quietly in the corner. There is a
binding here. There is an agreement to be part of a human society and to abide
by its rules. I am an active participant who is willing to suppress my animal
instincts but I will not pretend that my animal
instincts do not or should not exist. This simple
understanding of mine is only strengthened by science’s advancing knowledge
about genes and how the brain works. There are animals that cannot be easily
trained or perhaps trained at all but this does not disprove my understanding.
A genetic predisposition to be more violent than the average animal, a chemical
imbalance that causes some extremeness, would only mean that this had to be
addressed as part of the training/treatment. A brain that is physiologically
challenged when it comes to setting limits on behavior must be addressed as
such. It will come down to types of training not a metaphysical crisis. It has
been my observation that mental illness, or any behavior deemed abnormal, is
exacerbated when an individual aligns their behavior with a notion of evil.
Animal desires or misconceptions about reality should not be labeled as evil. They can be labeled as wrong per the society's rules. But if I
believe that I am evil, or that what I desire is evil, then this takes on a
power all its own. The terms good and evil have a sense of magic about them, an
unnaturalness. If I believe that good and evil are universal, objective terms,
and that my desires pull me to act in an “evil” way, then what hope is there
for me outside of the world of magic? By believing that I am an animal dealing
with instinctual desires I can see through the layers and seek simpler answers.
By thinking this way therapy is not rendered useless nor are society’s rules
now impotent. Believing that I am an animal dealing with desires merely changes
the focus. For me it makes treatment much more palatable. Thinking this way, I
am within the realm of my animal nature not in some netherworld of magic. If I
accept that I am behaving like an animal, if I accept that I can be
taught/treated to control this behavior, then successful habilitation is more
likely for me. I can be part of this society. I know there
are human-animals before me who have made these kinds of statements. They have reasoned
that moral beliefs are relative, subjective. I know there are thinkers who say
that there are some beliefs we must be born with and that those beliefs are
universal. I know that I was not born with any notion of an evil or good way to
get food or satisfy sexual desires. I know that I learned how to wait my turn.
I know that there are times in my life when I would have done great physical
harm to another but only stopped myself because I had been taught that it was
wrong. I feared the consequences of such an action in my standing with human
society. I know that for animals there is no universal moral understanding. I
know that I respect the laws and rules of the society around me because I want
to continue to live in this society. I know that many who hear these sorts of
statements are appalled at the pathways that are opened with this type of
thinking. They believe that an all-powerful something is the best source for
the rules that keep us from stealing each other’s food and spouses and bashing
each other when angry; a something that cannot be questioned. I understand this
way of thinking, and why some believe it is necessary, but it is not true to an animal. For me to be
convinced that there is more to ethics than choosing when and where to limit
my animal instincts, I must call out to the world of magic. I am using the term
magic to describe more than a belief in a supreme being or in religious dogma.
I am using the term regarding any belief that tells me I am somehow more than
an animal. As an animal it is not evil to kill another animal, human or not.
This bothers individuals who have no religious beliefs as much as the most
fervent believer of any of the major religions. I know that killing another human animal is not an option for me. I was taught that this is not accepted in the society that I live in. I know that I am often good to others. I am good to others because it makes me feel good. I was taught
that this is what good people do. I was taught that following the rules and abiding by traditions makes me a good person. I am an
animal properly trained to live in my society. When a scientist proves to me
that there is some gene that predisposes me to help others survive, I know that
this is evolution at work. I know that this gene was once a mutation and that
it has survived because it works. It is no more magic than the gene that
predisposes me to be anxious when I am in unfamiliar surroundings. Skeptics of
my statement that I am nothing more than an animal come from all sides and all
belief systems. They do not bow to my expertise on me, they cannot. Faith in
their special place in the world makes them right and they are made right by
faith in their special place in the world. I know that I am an animal and an
animal I know that I am. We can exist together: myself and the believers in the
magic of a supreme being, myself and the believers of magic in humanity. We can
do this if we all believe in the practicality of abiding by a set of rules.
These are rules aimed at maximizing tolerance for individuals. As an expert on
me I know that this is how it has always been and should always be. I know that
the rules are refined over time, sometimes to accommodate magical beliefs and
sometimes because magical beliefs have been shed. I understand this and I will
fight to change rules but abide by rules as I do so. This animal has been
leashed, by parents and teachers originally, but now I am leashed because it is
how I choose to be. This is true peace of mind. © 2024 Paul |
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Added on April 24, 2017 Last Updated on February 15, 2024 AuthorPaulAboutI am writing in the Mid Atlantic area of the United States, mostly non-fiction at this time. I am a song writer as well. http://songsongsongs.com Also of interest could be- http://bookstore.trafford... more..Writing
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